1 00:00:03,379 --> 00:00:05,137 Leneatha: I'M GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE A JOB, 2 00:00:05,137 --> 00:00:06,965 BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER, 3 00:00:06,965 --> 00:00:09,586 BUT I DON'T THINK ANYBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS 4 00:00:09,586 --> 00:00:11,172 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 5 00:00:17,034 --> 00:00:20,448 Woman: SOMEWHERE IN ME IS THIS LITTLE GLIMMER OF HOPE. 6 00:00:20,448 --> 00:00:22,586 I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL PERSON. 7 00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:37,137 YOU CAN'T DO IT, AND THEN I JUST GET MAD. 8 00:00:37,137 --> 00:00:38,793 Woman IF I DON'T MAKE A CHANGE NOW, 9 00:00:38,793 --> 00:00:40,586 I'M SCARED IT'S GONNA BE TOO LATE. 10 00:00:46,275 --> 00:00:47,655 IT HURTS! 11 00:00:47,655 --> 00:00:50,034 Woman I REFUSE TO STOP FIGHTING. 12 00:00:50,034 --> 00:00:51,517 I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR MY CHILDREN. 13 00:00:51,517 --> 00:00:54,517 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 14 00:00:54,517 --> 00:00:57,517 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 15 00:00:57,517 --> 00:00:59,517 Dr. Nowzaradan: BAD NEWS IS YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING. 16 00:00:59,517 --> 00:01:00,862 FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 17 00:01:00,862 --> 00:01:02,758 I DON'T, BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING, AND I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE 18 00:01:02,758 --> 00:01:04,793 TELLING ME THAT I'M EATING, BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING. 19 00:01:30,931 --> 00:01:32,517 THE FIRST THING THAT I WOULD THINK ABOUT 20 00:01:32,517 --> 00:01:33,862 WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING 21 00:01:33,862 --> 00:01:36,827 IS I WISH I COULD GO BACK TO BED, 22 00:01:39,172 --> 00:01:43,758 BECAUSE I DREAD HAVING TO FACE REALITY 23 00:01:46,068 --> 00:01:49,827 AND I JUST WANT TO CRY 24 00:01:49,827 --> 00:01:56,310 BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH PAIN THAT I'M IN, THE SIZE OF MY BODY, 25 00:01:56,310 --> 00:02:00,620 AND HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO DO MY DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITIES. 26 00:02:05,689 --> 00:02:07,793 WHEN I GET UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, 27 00:02:07,793 --> 00:02:12,655 I KNOW THAT I'M GONNA BE OUT OF BREATH, AND I DREAD IT. 28 00:02:14,931 --> 00:02:17,724 WHEN I SIT ON THE TOILET, I HAVE TO BRACE MYSELF 29 00:02:17,724 --> 00:02:21,034 AND MAKE SURE I DON'T FALL INTO THE TOILET 30 00:02:21,034 --> 00:02:24,413 BECAUSE BEING MY SIZE, YOU BREAK TOILET SEATS. 31 00:02:25,724 --> 00:02:31,206 AND BATHING IS A CHORE BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE 32 00:02:31,206 --> 00:02:36,034 THAT YOU GET EVERY CROOK AND CREVICE THAT YOU HAVE. 33 00:02:36,034 --> 00:02:38,448 AND SOME DAYS IF I FEEL LIKE I CAN DO IT, 34 00:02:38,448 --> 00:02:41,655 I'LL GET IN THE SHOWER, BUT I'M AFRAID TO GET IN IT 35 00:02:41,655 --> 00:02:44,793 BECAUSE I'M AFRAID I MIGHT SLIP AND FALL. 36 00:02:44,793 --> 00:02:50,344 AND SO I MAINLY USE MY TOILET TO TAKE A BATH 37 00:02:50,344 --> 00:02:54,896 AND IT'S HARD TO MAKE SURE THAT I'M CLEANING VERY GOOD. 38 00:02:54,896 --> 00:02:57,068 SOME DAYS I JUST, I PRAY AND I SAY, 39 00:02:57,068 --> 00:03:02,586 "LORD, WILL YOU JUST MAKE IT TO WHERE I DON'T SMELL?" 40 00:03:02,586 --> 00:03:05,275 AND I DON'T THINK ANYBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS 41 00:03:05,275 --> 00:03:09,620 AND HOW HUGE OF A STRUGGLE IT IS FOR ME TO DO ANYTHING. 42 00:03:09,620 --> 00:03:11,103 AND I'M AFRAID ONE DAY 43 00:03:11,103 --> 00:03:14,862 THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE TO WORK 44 00:03:14,862 --> 00:03:19,862 BECAUSE MY MOBILITY IS DECREASING OVER TIME NOW, 45 00:03:19,862 --> 00:03:23,379 AND A LOT OF THINGS THAT I WANT TO DO, I CAN'T DO. 46 00:03:23,379 --> 00:03:28,413 MY BONES ARE ACHING AND SOMETIMES MY LIMBS HURT. 47 00:03:28,413 --> 00:03:32,482 SOMETIMES I HAVE TO HIT MY KNEE TO GET UP OFF OF THE COUCH 48 00:03:32,482 --> 00:03:34,551 BECAUSE MY KNEE'LL GIVE OUT. 49 00:03:34,551 --> 00:03:38,620 SO I LIVE IN FEAR EVERY DAY THAT I'LL BE BEDBOUND 50 00:03:38,620 --> 00:03:42,275 AND WON'T BE ABLE TO LEAVE MY HOUSE OR DO ANYTHING. 51 00:03:42,275 --> 00:03:45,379 AND THAT'S THE MAIN THING THAT REALLY STRESSES ME OUT 52 00:03:45,379 --> 00:03:47,896 BECAUSE I HAVE TO WORK. THAT'S MY LIVELIHOOD 53 00:03:47,896 --> 00:03:50,586 AND THAT'S HOW I TAKE CARE OF MY TWO-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER. 54 00:03:59,310 --> 00:04:00,655 GOOD MORNING. 55 00:04:02,275 --> 00:04:05,413 I'M THE SOLE PROVIDER FOR HER. 56 00:04:05,413 --> 00:04:08,068 SHE HAS ASTHMA, AND I HAVE TO GIVE HER HER 57 00:04:08,068 --> 00:04:10,206 BREATHING TREATMENTS THROUGHOUT THE DAY. 58 00:04:12,482 --> 00:04:15,793 SO WE'LL COME IN THE LIVING ROOM AND I SIT ON THE COUCH, 59 00:04:15,793 --> 00:04:18,206 AND I GET HER PREPARED TO GET ALL OF HER BREATHING TREATMENTS 60 00:04:18,206 --> 00:04:20,586 AND HER MEDICINES FOR THE MORNING. 61 00:04:20,586 --> 00:04:22,344 AWW. 62 00:04:22,344 --> 00:04:25,482 AND I GIVE HER ANYTHING I CAN, BECAUSE SHE'S MY HEART. 63 00:04:27,068 --> 00:04:29,896 AND I CURRENTLY WORK A FULL-TIME JOB 64 00:04:29,896 --> 00:04:31,551 THAT I'VE BEEN ON FOR 23 YEARS. 65 00:04:31,551 --> 00:04:35,241 SO WE'LL HEAD OUT THE DOOR AND I DROP HER OFF AT DAYCARE. 66 00:04:35,241 --> 00:04:36,965 AND THEN WHEN I LEAVE, ALL I WANT TO DO 67 00:04:36,965 --> 00:04:40,862 IS GET ME SOMETHING TO EAT AND THEN I'LL GO ON TO WORK. 68 00:04:40,862 --> 00:04:43,413 AND I'M GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE A JOB, 69 00:04:43,413 --> 00:04:46,931 AND I'M GRATEFUL THAT I CAN STILL WORK, 70 00:04:46,931 --> 00:04:49,344 BUT I KNOW THAT I'M GETTING TO THE POINT 71 00:04:49,344 --> 00:04:50,931 THAT I WON'T HAVE A JOB MUCH LONGER 72 00:04:50,931 --> 00:04:53,068 IF I KEEP GETTING BIGGER, 73 00:04:53,068 --> 00:04:57,655 BECAUSE IT'S HARD FOR ME TO DO MY JOB WITH MY WEIGHT. 74 00:04:57,655 --> 00:05:01,551 MY AUNT KEEPS MY DAUGHTER FOR ME WHEN I'M AT WORK, 75 00:05:01,551 --> 00:05:05,482 AND I'M VERY GRATEFUL BECAUSE HAVING HER IN THERE 76 00:05:05,482 --> 00:05:09,758 IN THE DAYTIME MEANS I CAN KEEP UP WITH MY ROUTINE 77 00:05:09,758 --> 00:05:12,965 SO THAT WE CAN HAVE A ROOF OVER OUR HEAD. 78 00:05:12,965 --> 00:05:15,724 BUT IT FEELS LIKE EACH DAY I'M ONE STEP CLOSER 79 00:05:15,724 --> 00:05:19,206 TO FALLING APART, BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, 80 00:05:19,206 --> 00:05:23,896 AND BECAUSE EATING IS MY HAPPY PLACE. 81 00:05:23,896 --> 00:05:25,000 Woman: CAN I TAKE YOUR ORDER? 82 00:05:25,000 --> 00:05:27,344 YES, CAN I GET THREE GRIDDLES, ADD CHEESE, 83 00:05:27,344 --> 00:05:31,931 AND THEN A HASH BROWN AND A ORDER OF YOUR COOKIES? 84 00:05:31,931 --> 00:05:33,551 WILL THAT BE ALL? YES. 85 00:05:39,827 --> 00:05:42,000 THERE YOU GO. THANK YOU. 86 00:05:42,931 --> 00:05:45,413 WHEN I'M EATING, I'M NOT STRESSED ABOUT EATING 87 00:05:45,413 --> 00:05:47,586 OR ANYTHING ELSE 88 00:05:47,586 --> 00:05:52,275 BECAUSE EATING TAKES THAT AWAY AND JUST MAKES ME HAPPY. 89 00:05:52,275 --> 00:05:55,586 BUT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T AFFORD TO KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS 90 00:05:55,586 --> 00:05:59,000 AND IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE. 91 00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:02,241 I JUST DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO CHANGE 92 00:06:02,241 --> 00:06:05,724 AND I REALLY STILL DON'T KNOW HOW I REALLY GOT HERE. 93 00:06:05,724 --> 00:06:09,758 I JUST KNOW, I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 94 00:06:12,517 --> 00:06:14,482 GROWING UP, I HAD A HAPPY CHILDHOOD. 95 00:06:14,482 --> 00:06:18,241 I HAVE FOUR BROTHERS AND FOUR SISTERS, 96 00:06:18,241 --> 00:06:19,827 SO I WAS THE YOUNGEST OF NINE. 97 00:06:19,827 --> 00:06:25,793 MY PARENTS WERE VERY STRICT, BUT THEY WERE VERY LOVING. 98 00:06:25,793 --> 00:06:29,482 AND WE NEVER HAD A LOT OF MONEY, BUT WE WERE HAPPY. 99 00:06:29,482 --> 00:06:32,793 MY DAD WAS THE SOLE PROVIDER IN THE HOUSE, 100 00:06:32,793 --> 00:06:35,758 SO MY DAD WORKED ALL THE TIME. 101 00:06:35,758 --> 00:06:39,310 BUT WHEN HE WAS HOME, HE LIKED TO SPOIL US. 102 00:06:39,310 --> 00:06:42,172 MY DADDY WOULD HAVE SNACKS IN HIS ROOM 103 00:06:42,172 --> 00:06:44,103 AND HE'D HAVE HIS COKES AND HIS CAKES. 104 00:06:44,103 --> 00:06:46,034 I REMEMBER HE WOULD BRING ME IN THERE 105 00:06:46,034 --> 00:06:48,551 AND LET ME PICK WHATEVER I WANTED. 106 00:06:48,551 --> 00:06:50,103 I'D EAT SOME OF DADDY'S CAKES 107 00:06:50,103 --> 00:06:52,482 AND DRINK SOME OF DADDY'S COKE AND ICE CREAM, 108 00:06:52,482 --> 00:06:54,862 SO I STARTED LOVING SWEETS. 109 00:06:56,275 --> 00:06:57,551 BUT AT THAT TIME, 110 00:06:57,551 --> 00:06:59,724 IT WAS NEVER SUCH A BIG DEAL THE WAY I WAS EATING 111 00:06:59,724 --> 00:07:02,413 BECAUSE I WAS STILL A PRETTY NORMAL SIZE. 112 00:07:02,413 --> 00:07:05,896 AT THE AGE OF EIGHT I WEIGHED MAYBE 80 OR 90 POUNDS 113 00:07:05,896 --> 00:07:08,758 AND IT WASN'T A PROBLEM. 114 00:07:08,758 --> 00:07:11,586 WHEN I WAS AT HOME, I WAS A HAPPY KID. 115 00:07:11,586 --> 00:07:14,689 BUT I HATED TO GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE I ALWAYS GOT TEASED 116 00:07:14,689 --> 00:07:20,034 FOR BEING SO DARK SKINNED, AND I HATED MY SKIN COMPLEXION. 117 00:07:20,034 --> 00:07:23,793 IN HIGH SCHOOL I GAINED WEIGHT, BUT ONLY A LITTLE. 118 00:07:23,793 --> 00:07:27,344 I WAS ALWAYS ACTIVE AND MOVING AROUND. 119 00:07:27,344 --> 00:07:29,241 AND THEN PROBABLY BY THE TIME I GRADUATED, 120 00:07:29,241 --> 00:07:30,517 I WAS PROBABLY ABOUT 180. 121 00:07:30,517 --> 00:07:34,068 I DIDN'T EVER FEEL MY WEIGHT. 122 00:07:44,241 --> 00:07:48,206 I WAS 18 WHEN I STARTED WORKING AT MY CURRENT JOB, 123 00:07:48,206 --> 00:07:50,379 AND IT FELT GOOD TO BE WORKING. 124 00:07:50,379 --> 00:07:53,310 BUT WHEN I WAS 24, 125 00:07:53,310 --> 00:07:56,034 THAT'S WHEN THINGS STARTED TO GO WRONG WITH MY BODY. 126 00:07:58,068 --> 00:08:00,655 IT STARTED WITH ME HAVING THIS PAIN IN MY SHOULDER 127 00:08:00,655 --> 00:08:03,379 BECAUSE MY BREASTS WERE HEAVY. 128 00:08:03,379 --> 00:08:08,896 I HAD HEAVY BOOBS THAT DIDN'T SYMMETRICALLY FIT MY BODY, 129 00:08:08,896 --> 00:08:10,344 AND THEY WERE HAVING ISSUES 130 00:08:10,344 --> 00:08:13,413 AND THE RECOMMENDATION WAS TO HAVE THEM CUT DOWN 131 00:08:13,413 --> 00:08:17,793 AND REDUCED IN SIZE TO FIT MY BODY. 132 00:08:17,793 --> 00:08:21,137 BUT WHEN THEY WENT IN TO DO THE SURGERY, SOMETHING HAPPENED, 133 00:08:21,137 --> 00:08:25,827 THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS, AND MY LUNGS COLLAPSED. 134 00:08:25,827 --> 00:08:27,965 AFTER I GOT OFF THE VENTILATOR, 135 00:08:27,965 --> 00:08:30,517 I STAYED BACK AND FORTH ON STEROIDS 136 00:08:30,517 --> 00:08:32,379 AND IN AND OUT THE HOSPITAL 137 00:08:32,379 --> 00:08:35,482 TO TRY TO KEEP MY LUNGS STRENGTHENED. 138 00:08:35,482 --> 00:08:38,344 IT WAS HELL. 139 00:08:38,344 --> 00:08:41,103 THIS PROCESS LASTED PROBABLY ABOUT FIVE TO SIX YEARS. 140 00:08:44,068 --> 00:08:46,965 I COULDN'T AFFORD TO KEEP GOING BACK AND FORTH TO THE DOCTOR. 141 00:08:46,965 --> 00:08:48,551 AND THEN I DIDN'T HAVE PRESCRIPTIONS TO GET 142 00:08:48,551 --> 00:08:51,000 BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE MONEY TO GO TO THE DOCTOR. 143 00:08:51,000 --> 00:08:54,172 SO I STARTED USING FOOD AS MY PRESCRIPTION, 144 00:08:54,172 --> 00:08:56,172 AND OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS 145 00:08:56,172 --> 00:08:59,379 I GAINED ALL THE WAY UP TO 400-AND-SOME POUNDS. 146 00:08:59,379 --> 00:09:02,206 SO IT WAS A DARK TIME, AND FOOD AND SWEETS 147 00:09:02,206 --> 00:09:04,862 WAS ALL THAT WAS GETTING ME THROUGH IT. 148 00:09:04,862 --> 00:09:06,413 AND THEN FINALLY, THERE WAS A LIGHT 149 00:09:06,413 --> 00:09:08,482 AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. 150 00:09:08,482 --> 00:09:10,482 WHEN I WAS 29, I MET A GUY 151 00:09:10,482 --> 00:09:14,482 THAT I THOUGHT WAS MY PRINCE CHARMING. 152 00:09:14,482 --> 00:09:18,413 AND HE WAS JUST A LITTLE CHARMER. 153 00:09:18,413 --> 00:09:21,172 HE TOLD ME HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT MY SIZE. 154 00:09:21,172 --> 00:09:24,655 HE WOULD SAY THINGS LIKE, "OH, I LIKE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE," 155 00:09:24,655 --> 00:09:29,620 AND, "I LIKE BIG WOMEN," AND, "YOU'RE OKAY TO ME." 156 00:09:29,620 --> 00:09:31,655 AS WE STARTED DATING, HE WAS LIKE, 157 00:09:31,655 --> 00:09:33,965 "WELL, I LOVE YOU. WE'RE GONNA GET MARRIED." 158 00:09:33,965 --> 00:09:36,931 I WAS LIKE, "WELL, OKAY." 159 00:09:36,931 --> 00:09:39,689 SO WE WERE MARRIED, AND I WAS HAPPY 160 00:09:39,689 --> 00:09:42,206 BECAUSE I THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO START A FAMILY, 161 00:09:42,206 --> 00:09:44,137 AND THAT'S WHAT I REALLY WANTED. 162 00:09:44,137 --> 00:09:46,172 BUT IT WASN'T LONG AFTER WE GOT MARRIED 163 00:09:46,172 --> 00:09:48,655 THAT HE STARTED TO SHOW HIS TRUE COLORS. 164 00:09:49,827 --> 00:09:51,448 HE WAS AN ABUSIVE MAN, 165 00:09:51,448 --> 00:09:54,310 EMOTIONALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSIVE. 166 00:09:54,310 --> 00:09:56,965 HE WOULD ALWAYS TELL ME, "NOBODY ELSE WOULD WANT YOU," AND... 167 00:09:56,965 --> 00:10:00,344 CALLED ME FAT AND STUPID AND SAY THINGS TO ME 168 00:10:00,344 --> 00:10:02,344 THAT YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY TO ANYONE. 169 00:10:02,344 --> 00:10:05,241 BUT I PUT UP WITH THE WAY HE TREATED ME FOR A LONG TIME 170 00:10:05,241 --> 00:10:06,931 BECAUSE I MADE A VOW. 171 00:10:06,931 --> 00:10:09,413 AND SOMETIMES, IF HE GOT REALLY BAD, 172 00:10:09,413 --> 00:10:12,896 I KNEW I COULD FEEL BETTER IF I HAD MY SWEETS, 173 00:10:12,896 --> 00:10:17,000 SO OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS I WAS GAINING BUT NOT TOO BAD. 174 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:21,482 BUT I GOT UP TO 500 BY THE TIME I WAS 35, 175 00:10:21,482 --> 00:10:25,137 AND THEN CAME THE LAST STRAW. 176 00:10:25,137 --> 00:10:26,896 I FOUND OUT ABOUT THE OTHER WOMAN 177 00:10:26,896 --> 00:10:31,206 AND HE HAD BROKE OUR VOWS, AND THAT'S WHEN I WAS DONE. 178 00:10:31,206 --> 00:10:33,793 AND I GOT OUR DIVORCE, AND I DIDN'T LOOK BACK. 179 00:10:38,689 --> 00:10:40,344 AFTER I GOT MY DIVORCE, I SAID, 180 00:10:40,344 --> 00:10:43,689 "WELL, I GUESS NOBODY'S GONNA EVER COME INTO MY LIFE 181 00:10:43,689 --> 00:10:46,379 THAT'S WORTH ANYTHING." 182 00:10:46,379 --> 00:10:48,931 AND THEN ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO, 183 00:10:48,931 --> 00:10:51,896 I MET MY DAUGHTER'S DAD THROUGH A MUTUAL FRIEND. 184 00:10:51,896 --> 00:10:56,965 WE GOT ALONG GOOD TOGETHER, AND WE HAD SOME ROMANTIC CHEMISTRY. 185 00:10:56,965 --> 00:11:01,758 BUT AFTER TWO MONTHS OF DATING MY DAUGHTER'S FATHER 186 00:11:01,758 --> 00:11:06,724 I GOT PREGNANT, AND IT WAS VERY UNEXPECTED. 187 00:11:06,724 --> 00:11:09,206 TO BE HONEST, I ALWAYS PICTURED STARTING A FAMILY, 188 00:11:09,206 --> 00:11:11,724 BUT NOT LIKE THIS, SO IT WAS HARD. 189 00:11:11,724 --> 00:11:14,655 AND AT FIRST, HER FATHER WAS GOOD ABOUT IT. 190 00:11:14,655 --> 00:11:17,137 THE WHOLE TIME THAT I WAS PREGNANT WITH OUR DAUGHTER, 191 00:11:17,137 --> 00:11:21,000 HE WAS THERE. HE DID FOR ME. HE CARED FOR ME. 192 00:11:21,000 --> 00:11:22,482 WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY DAUGHTER, 193 00:11:22,482 --> 00:11:28,241 I WAS WEIGHING AROUND 560 POUNDS AND I WAS VERY HIGH RISK. 194 00:11:28,241 --> 00:11:30,931 HE WAS THERE FOR THE DELIVERY. 195 00:11:30,931 --> 00:11:34,655 HE WAS THERE THE FIRST YEAR OF HER LIFE. 196 00:11:34,655 --> 00:11:36,724 I DIDN'T KNOW IF WE WERE GOING TO MAKE IT FOREVER, 197 00:11:36,724 --> 00:11:38,793 BUT I WAS HAPPY WITH THE SUPPORT, 198 00:11:38,793 --> 00:11:43,034 AND I WAS PROUD OF HIM FOR BEING A GOOD MAN ABOUT IT. 199 00:11:43,034 --> 00:11:45,413 BUT THEN, RIGHT AROUND HER FIRST BIRTHDAY, 200 00:11:45,413 --> 00:11:48,000 IT WAS LIKE A SWITCH JUST FLIPPED IN HIM. 201 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:49,379 IT WAS LIKE, IN HIS EYES, 202 00:11:49,379 --> 00:11:50,862 HE DIDN'T WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. 203 00:11:50,862 --> 00:11:55,310 HE JUST LOOK AT ME LIKE I JUST DISGUSTED HIM, 204 00:11:55,310 --> 00:11:57,827 AND HE LEFT US AND WALKED OUT. 205 00:11:57,827 --> 00:12:00,275 AND THAT HURT ME A LOT. 206 00:12:00,275 --> 00:12:02,172 WHEN I LOOKED AT MY DAUGHTER I SEE 207 00:12:02,172 --> 00:12:03,413 THAT THAT'S THE ONLY BLESSING 208 00:12:03,413 --> 00:12:05,689 THAT I GOT OUT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP. 209 00:12:05,689 --> 00:12:10,034 SHE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AND I WOULDN'T TRADE ANYTHING FOR HER. 210 00:12:17,965 --> 00:12:20,862 I KNOW NOW THAT I'M OVER 600 POUNDS 211 00:12:20,862 --> 00:12:22,827 BECAUSE THERE'S A SCALE AT MY WORK, 212 00:12:22,827 --> 00:12:24,827 AND I WEIGHED MYSELF NOT TOO LONG AGO 213 00:12:24,827 --> 00:12:26,655 AND I WAS OVER 600. 214 00:12:31,896 --> 00:12:35,068 YES, LET ME GET TWO OF YOUR DOUBLE CHEESEBURGERS 215 00:12:35,068 --> 00:12:37,034 WITH NO ONIONS. 216 00:12:37,034 --> 00:12:41,827 LET ME GET A 20-PIECE NUGGET WITH A LARGE SODA WITH NO ICE. 217 00:12:41,827 --> 00:12:45,793 AND THEN LET ME GET YOUR FOUR-NUGGET KID'S MEAL. 218 00:12:45,793 --> 00:12:50,241 AND THEN LET ME GET A ORDER OF YOUR CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES. 219 00:12:52,137 --> 00:12:54,034 THAT'LL BE ALL. 220 00:12:54,034 --> 00:12:59,586 BUT HAVING KENLYN WAS A WAKE-UP CALL, AND I WANT TO DO BETTER. 221 00:12:59,586 --> 00:13:01,896 BUT EVERY TIME I THINK I'M DOING GOOD, 222 00:13:01,896 --> 00:13:04,689 ALL IT TAKES IS ONE TASTE OF SOMETHING MY BODY WANT, 223 00:13:04,689 --> 00:13:07,413 AND I LOSE ALL MY PROGRESS. 224 00:13:07,413 --> 00:13:09,862 AND SO NOW I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR A LIFE 225 00:13:09,862 --> 00:13:11,931 THAT DIDN'T ASK TO BE HERE. 226 00:13:11,931 --> 00:13:16,413 AND I DON'T WANT TO LET HER DOWN, 227 00:13:16,413 --> 00:13:19,310 BUT I'M AFRAID THAT I ALREADY AM 228 00:13:19,310 --> 00:13:23,000 BY NOT TRYING TO DO BETTER FOR MY HEALTH AND MYSELF 229 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:25,379 BECAUSE I EAT TOO MUCH. 230 00:13:25,379 --> 00:13:27,517 SOMETIMES I ASK MYSELF, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?" 231 00:13:27,517 --> 00:13:31,137 BECAUSE NOW I HAVE A LITTLE PERSON THAT'S DEPENDING ON ME, 232 00:13:31,137 --> 00:13:32,689 AND I STILL CAN'T STOP. 233 00:13:32,689 --> 00:13:35,413 BUT I CAN FINALLY ADMIT IT TO MYSELF 234 00:13:35,413 --> 00:13:37,827 THAT I'M ADDICTED TO FOOD. 235 00:13:37,827 --> 00:13:39,827 SO WITH EVERY DAY THAT GOES BY, 236 00:13:39,827 --> 00:13:42,206 I KNOW THAT MY DAUGHTER NEEDS ME, 237 00:13:42,206 --> 00:13:46,551 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY MORE DAYS I'M GONNA HAVE WITH HER. 238 00:13:46,551 --> 00:13:51,275 THE THOUGHT OF BEING GONE, WITH HER AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE, 239 00:13:51,275 --> 00:13:54,551 IS ALMOST TOO MUCH FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT. 240 00:13:54,551 --> 00:13:56,413 SO I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 241 00:13:56,413 --> 00:13:58,827 I GOT TO FIGHT NOW FOR BOTH OF US. 242 00:14:02,724 --> 00:14:04,620 HELLO, AND HOW WAS YOUR DAY?HI, BOO-BOO! 243 00:14:04,620 --> 00:14:07,241 WE HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY. WHAT ABOUT YOU? 244 00:14:07,241 --> 00:14:08,551 Y'ALL HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY?WE DID. 245 00:14:08,551 --> 00:14:11,103 TELL TEE-TEE, SAY, "WE'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW. 246 00:14:11,103 --> 00:14:12,827 GET YOUR HAIR BOW.LOVE YOU TOO. 247 00:14:12,827 --> 00:14:14,172 ALL RIGHT, TEE-TEE. SEE YOU TOMORROW. 248 00:14:14,172 --> 00:14:15,758 OKAY, NOW. YOU ALL TAKE CARE. 249 00:14:15,758 --> 00:14:18,068 YOU TOO. BYE-BYE. 250 00:14:18,068 --> 00:14:19,517 YES! 251 00:14:19,517 --> 00:14:21,413 YOU READY? 252 00:14:21,413 --> 00:14:24,586 COME ON. YOU HAD A GOOD DAY? 253 00:14:24,586 --> 00:14:26,724 YOU DID? YEAH. 254 00:14:28,827 --> 00:14:31,793 MY ADDICTION WITH MY FOOD AND SWEETS IS KILLING ME 255 00:14:31,793 --> 00:14:34,275 AND ROBBING HER OF HAPPINESS, 256 00:14:34,275 --> 00:14:39,241 AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M A BAD MOM. 257 00:14:39,241 --> 00:14:44,275 BECAUSE SHE'LL SAY, "MOMMY, CAN YOU HOLD ME?" 258 00:14:44,275 --> 00:14:48,793 AND I CAN'T BECAUSE MY BODY WON'T PHYSICALLY LET ME DO THAT. 259 00:14:50,206 --> 00:14:55,862 SO I FEEL LIKE I'M LIMITING HER OF HER CHILDHOOD. 260 00:14:55,862 --> 00:14:59,206 THAT'S WHERE THE SADNESS COMES IN. 261 00:14:59,206 --> 00:15:03,448 AND MOST OF THE TIME I FEEL LIKE I'M WEARING A MASK 262 00:15:03,448 --> 00:15:09,965 TO COVER UP HOW I REALLY FEEL AND WHO I REALLY AM AT HEART. 263 00:15:09,965 --> 00:15:11,862 THAT'S THE MOST HEARTBREAKING PART FOR ME 264 00:15:11,862 --> 00:15:15,344 IS THAT I WANT TO BE MYSELF FOR MY DAUGHTER. 265 00:15:16,896 --> 00:15:22,206 BUT I HAVE THAT MASK ON SO THAT SHE WON'T SEE UNDER THAT MASK 266 00:15:22,206 --> 00:15:25,793 IS JUST A REALLY SAD PERSON THAT'S HURTING 267 00:15:25,793 --> 00:15:28,034 AND WANTING TO LOSE WEIGHT, 268 00:15:28,034 --> 00:15:31,000 AND SOMETIMES SHE'LL SEE ME CRYING, 269 00:15:31,000 --> 00:15:32,862 AND SHE'LL GET TEARY EYES AND SAY, 270 00:15:32,862 --> 00:15:36,965 "MOMMY! MOMMY, I LOVE YOU." 271 00:15:36,965 --> 00:15:39,517 AND JUST TO HEAR HER VOICE AND TELL ME THAT, 272 00:15:39,517 --> 00:15:42,206 IT REALLY TOUCHES MY HEART 273 00:15:42,206 --> 00:15:46,827 THAT A TWO-YEAR-OLD KNOWS WHEN AN ADULT IS DOWN. 274 00:15:46,827 --> 00:15:49,793 BUT I DO FEEL LIKE IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT, 275 00:15:49,793 --> 00:15:53,620 THEN I'M FEARFUL THAT I WON'T BE HERE FOR HER. 276 00:15:53,620 --> 00:15:56,758 I'M AFRAID ALL THE TIME, I WILL PASS AWAY BEFORE 277 00:15:56,758 --> 00:15:58,620 I'M ABLE TO ENJOY SEEING MY DAUGHTER 278 00:15:58,620 --> 00:16:00,896 WITH ANY OF HER ACCOMPLISHMENTS. 279 00:16:03,344 --> 00:16:04,724 AND THEN, "MOMMY'S NOT HERE 280 00:16:04,724 --> 00:16:07,758 BECAUSE MOMMY WAS ADDICTED TO FOOD. 281 00:16:07,758 --> 00:16:11,206 SHE COULDN'T LET IT GO TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE WAS HERE FOR ME." 282 00:16:11,206 --> 00:16:13,931 TAKE ANOTHER BITE. YOU CAN GET SOME MORE. 283 00:16:13,931 --> 00:16:18,655 I DON'T WANT THAT. THAT'S WHY I NEED TO CHANGE. 284 00:16:18,655 --> 00:16:20,896 I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT FOR MY HEALTH 285 00:16:20,896 --> 00:16:23,000 AND I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT FOR MYSELF 286 00:16:23,000 --> 00:16:24,793 AND I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT FOR MY DAUGHTER. 287 00:16:24,793 --> 00:16:27,862 BUT IF I DON'T GIVE UP THE WAY THAT I EAT, 288 00:16:27,862 --> 00:16:33,586 THEN I'LL SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL, AND THAT WILL BE MY DEMISE. 289 00:16:33,586 --> 00:16:35,758 BUT I HAVE MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER. 290 00:16:35,758 --> 00:16:38,827 I'M TRYING TO BE AN EXAMPLE FOR HER 291 00:16:38,827 --> 00:16:41,000 AND I JUST WANT HER TO KNOW 292 00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:45,448 THAT IF YOU GIVE IT YOUR ALL, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. 293 00:16:45,448 --> 00:16:47,689 SO I JUST HAVE THAT FAITH AND THAT HOPE 294 00:16:47,689 --> 00:16:49,000 THAT I CAN GET HELP. 295 00:17:11,517 --> 00:17:13,068 Leneatha: TODAY'S A BIG DAY FOR ME 296 00:17:13,068 --> 00:17:15,344 BECAUSE I'M GOING TO HOUSTON TO SEE DR. NOW. 297 00:17:17,241 --> 00:17:20,137 I GOT AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE IF HE COULD HELP ME LOSE WEIGHT, 298 00:17:20,137 --> 00:17:22,620 AND MY APPOINTMENT IS TOMORROW. 299 00:17:22,620 --> 00:17:25,517 SO MY SISTER CAME AND PICKED UP MY DAUGHTER, KENLYN, 300 00:17:25,517 --> 00:17:29,482 AND I'VE JUST BEEN PACKING AND GETTING READY FOR THE TRIP. 301 00:17:29,482 --> 00:17:31,379 BUT I'M VERY NERVOUS 302 00:17:31,379 --> 00:17:35,103 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A LONG DRIVE LIKE THIS IN YEARS, 303 00:17:35,103 --> 00:17:38,241 AND IT'LL PROBABLY TAKE AT LEAST SEVEN TO EIGHT HOURS. 304 00:17:38,241 --> 00:17:42,103 IT'S REALLY HARD FOR ME TO SIT IN MY VEHICLE FOR LONG. 305 00:17:42,103 --> 00:17:44,931 I'M JUST GLAD THAT I HAVE A HUGE SUPPORT SYSTEM, 306 00:17:44,931 --> 00:17:47,965 BECAUSE TWO OF MY SUPPORTERS ARE GOING WITH ME. 307 00:17:47,965 --> 00:17:50,793 FRANK IS GOING WITH ME. HE'S A FRIEND OF OUR FAMILY. 308 00:17:50,793 --> 00:17:53,758 AND THEN MY SISTER PAM IS GOING AS WELL 309 00:17:53,758 --> 00:17:56,448 AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT'S GONNA REALLY PUSH ME THROUGH IT. 310 00:17:56,448 --> 00:17:58,344 KNOCK-KNOCK. KNOCK-KNOCK. 311 00:17:58,344 --> 00:18:00,034 HEY, Y'ALL! COME ON. 312 00:18:00,034 --> 00:18:01,068 OH! 313 00:18:01,068 --> 00:18:02,034 GOOD MORNING. GOOD MORNING. 314 00:18:02,034 --> 00:18:03,482 MORNING!MORNING! 315 00:18:03,482 --> 00:18:05,275 HEY, HEY. YOU READY? 316 00:18:05,275 --> 00:18:06,517 MIGHT AS WELL BE. 317 00:18:06,517 --> 00:18:08,758 ALL RIGHT. I'VE BEEN UP. YOU SLEEP OKAY? 318 00:18:08,758 --> 00:18:11,103 Leneatha: I DID. I SLEPT LIKE A BABY. 319 00:18:11,103 --> 00:18:12,758 ALL RIGHT! NO FEARS? 320 00:18:12,758 --> 00:18:16,103 -I THINK I PROBABLY THREW THAT UP LAST NIGHT. -OKAY. 321 00:18:16,103 --> 00:18:19,482 I'M JUST SCARED TO SEE WHAT HE GONNA SAY, THOUGH. 322 00:18:19,482 --> 00:18:21,620 WELL, WHATEVER HE SAYS, IT'S ONLY FOR THE GOOD, 323 00:18:21,620 --> 00:18:25,448 SO IT'S OKAY. AND IT'S OKAY TO BE SCARED. 324 00:18:25,448 --> 00:18:27,793 YOU KNOW, FEAR CAN BE A GOOD THING. IT WILL PUSH YOU. 325 00:18:27,793 --> 00:18:30,758 YEAH. BUT I'M READY. 326 00:18:30,758 --> 00:18:33,413 WHAT MAKES TODAY IMPORTANT FOR LEN IS THAT 327 00:18:33,413 --> 00:18:35,344 SHE'S EMBARKING UPON A JOURNEY. 328 00:18:35,344 --> 00:18:38,724 SHE'S FEARFUL, BUT SHE REALIZES THIS JOURNEY 329 00:18:38,724 --> 00:18:42,379 IS NECESSARY TO GET HEALTHY AND TO BE HERE FOR HER CHILD. 330 00:18:42,379 --> 00:18:46,206 SO I'M HER CHEERLEADER. I AM HER SUPPORT SYSTEM. 331 00:18:46,206 --> 00:18:48,103 AND I'M IN THIS FOR THE LONG HAUL 332 00:18:48,103 --> 00:18:49,827 BECAUSE SHE NEEDS THAT. 333 00:18:49,827 --> 00:18:51,931 SHE WANTS TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. 334 00:18:51,931 --> 00:18:55,000 SHE WANTS TO GET HEALTHY, AND I WANT TO HELP HER DO SO. 335 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:58,034 OKAY, GOT MY COAT AND MY PURSE. 336 00:18:58,034 --> 00:19:00,344 AND THESE ARE MY BAGS AND THIS IS MY BAG. 337 00:19:00,344 --> 00:19:02,206 WHAT'S IN THE SMALL BAG? 338 00:19:02,206 --> 00:19:04,172 MY BREATHING MACHINE. AIN'T NO SNACKS IN THERE. 339 00:19:04,172 --> 00:19:05,827 OKAY. JUST CHECKING. 340 00:19:05,827 --> 00:19:07,482 WE CAN STOP AND GET SOME, THOUGH. 341 00:19:08,827 --> 00:19:11,586 OKAY. WELL, FRANK, GET THEM BAGS. 342 00:19:11,586 --> 00:19:13,586 YEAH, YEAH, YEAH. LET'S GET IT, LEN. 343 00:19:13,586 --> 00:19:14,620 LET'S GET IT. 344 00:19:14,620 --> 00:19:17,172 GOT A LONG RIDE. 345 00:19:17,862 --> 00:19:19,758 GOT TO PUT MY COAT ON. IT'S COLD OUT THERE, GIRL. 346 00:19:21,793 --> 00:19:24,379 THE THOUGHT OF GOING IN A CAR ALL THE WAY TO HOUSTON 347 00:19:24,379 --> 00:19:26,448 IS TERRIFYING. 348 00:19:26,448 --> 00:19:30,896 THERE'S PART OF ME THAT WANTS TO JUST FORGET IT AND STAY HOME. 349 00:19:30,896 --> 00:19:32,758 ALL RIGHT, Y'ALL. 350 00:19:32,758 --> 00:19:35,413 BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT. 351 00:19:35,413 --> 00:19:38,689 WATCH YOUR STOP GOING DOWN. WATCH YOUR STEP. 352 00:19:38,689 --> 00:19:41,724 I REALLY NEED THE HELP TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF, 353 00:19:41,724 --> 00:19:44,034 AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S NOW OR NEVER 354 00:19:44,034 --> 00:19:46,724 BECAUSE IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT NOW, 355 00:19:46,724 --> 00:19:49,241 I FEEL LIKE I WON'T BE AROUND FOR MY DAUGHTER. 356 00:19:49,241 --> 00:19:51,965 BECAUSE I'VE TRIED TO LOSE WEIGHT ON MY OWN, 357 00:19:51,965 --> 00:19:54,103 AND I THINK THE ONLY THING THAT'S REALLY GOING TO WORK 358 00:19:54,103 --> 00:19:56,137 IS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 359 00:19:56,137 --> 00:19:57,827 AND SO I'M JUST REALLY GRATEFUL 360 00:19:57,827 --> 00:19:59,931 THAT PAM AND FRANK CAME THROUGH FOR ME, 361 00:19:59,931 --> 00:20:02,758 BECAUSE I'VE HAD A LOT OF ANXIETY ABOUT THIS TRIP. 362 00:20:12,172 --> 00:20:14,896 I'M BEHIND HER.WHEW! 363 00:20:17,620 --> 00:20:18,896 DON'T FALL. 364 00:20:18,896 --> 00:20:20,689 I'M JUST SCARED. 365 00:20:20,689 --> 00:20:22,862 HOLD UP. LET ME GET IN HERE. 366 00:20:22,862 --> 00:20:25,137 I NEED YOUR HELP OVER HERE.WHICH WAY? 367 00:20:25,137 --> 00:20:27,689 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PULL MY LEG UP ON THIS SIDE. 368 00:20:27,689 --> 00:20:30,655 GO BACK AND COME AROUND. 369 00:20:30,655 --> 00:20:33,931 YOU'RE GONNA BE IN THERE. IN THE BACK. 370 00:20:33,931 --> 00:20:37,000 THIS LEG RIGHT HERE. 371 00:20:37,000 --> 00:20:38,931 READY?ONE, TWO... 372 00:20:38,931 --> 00:20:41,103 GO.PICK IT UP. 373 00:20:41,103 --> 00:20:42,551 I GOT YOU. 374 00:20:42,551 --> 00:20:44,344 YOU GOOD? 375 00:20:44,344 --> 00:20:45,931 YEAH. 376 00:20:51,275 --> 00:20:52,379 YEAH. 377 00:21:00,310 --> 00:21:02,000 YOU GOOD? YEAH. 378 00:21:04,068 --> 00:21:05,931 HOW ARE YOU FEELING? YOU ALL RIGHT IN HERE? 379 00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:06,965 YES, AND OUT OF BREATH. 380 00:21:06,965 --> 00:21:08,965 JUST OUT OF BREATH? YEAH. 381 00:21:08,965 --> 00:21:12,172 I KNOW THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE TO CHANGE MY WAYS, 382 00:21:12,172 --> 00:21:14,344 BUT IT'S HARD TO KNOW HOW THAT'S GONNA WORK. 383 00:21:14,344 --> 00:21:18,517 AND IF DR. NOW TURNS ME AWAY, I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 384 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:37,448 WELL, WE MADE IT TO HOUSTON, AND MY BODY IS ACHING. 385 00:21:37,448 --> 00:21:39,862 BUT OVERALL, I'M PROUD OF HOW I DID. 386 00:21:42,482 --> 00:21:44,620 YESTERDAY I WAS TIRED AND HURTING 387 00:21:44,620 --> 00:21:46,034 FROM GETTING IN AND OUT THE VAN. 388 00:21:46,034 --> 00:21:47,137 BUT TODAY I'M READY. 389 00:21:47,137 --> 00:21:48,482 I'M RECUPERATED AND REFRESHED, 390 00:21:48,482 --> 00:21:51,310 AND I'M READY TO GET TO MY APPOINTMENT. 391 00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:55,413 BUT AS I'M GETTING CLOSER TO IT, IT'S BECOMING MORE REAL. 392 00:21:55,413 --> 00:21:58,379 BUT I'M JUST GETTING MORE ANXIOUS BECAUSE MY HEALTH 393 00:21:58,379 --> 00:22:02,827 AND REALLY MY LIFE IS DEPENDING ON WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY. 394 00:22:02,827 --> 00:22:07,206 IF HE TELLS ME NO, THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO. 395 00:22:07,206 --> 00:22:09,517 I DON'T HAVE A PLAN WITHOUT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 396 00:22:09,517 --> 00:22:11,689 SO I HAVE TO GET DR. NOW'S HELP. 397 00:22:11,689 --> 00:22:15,068 I FEEL LIKE DR. NOW'S MY LAST HOPE 398 00:22:15,068 --> 00:22:17,379 TO GET HELP WITH THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY 399 00:22:17,379 --> 00:22:20,827 BECAUSE MOST DOCTORS DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU 400 00:22:20,827 --> 00:22:23,448 IF YOU'RE TOO HIGH-RISK. 401 00:22:23,448 --> 00:22:25,310 SO I KNOW HE DOESN'T HAVE TO HELP ME, 402 00:22:25,310 --> 00:22:26,965 AND HE MIGHT NOT BE WILLING TO 403 00:22:26,965 --> 00:22:30,793 IF HE FINDS OUT ANYTHING ELSE THAT'S WRONG ABOUT ME, 404 00:22:30,793 --> 00:22:33,103 AND THAT'S WHAT I'M SCARED OF THE MOST 405 00:22:33,103 --> 00:22:35,965 BECAUSE I CAN FEEL MY BODY'S GETTING WORSE 406 00:22:35,965 --> 00:22:37,655 AND I KNOW I DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT 407 00:22:37,655 --> 00:22:40,000 BEFORE THINGS GET REALLY BAD FOR ME. 408 00:22:43,517 --> 00:22:45,137 LEN. 409 00:22:47,034 --> 00:22:50,137 SO I NEED THIS NOT ONLY FOR MY DAUGHTER 410 00:22:50,137 --> 00:22:52,137 BUT FOR MYSELF AND MY HEALTH. 411 00:22:52,137 --> 00:22:55,206 AND RIGHT NOW I'M JUST PRAYING THAT THE NUMBER THAT COMES UP 412 00:22:55,206 --> 00:22:57,344 IS SOMETHING THAT DR. NOW CAN WORK WITH 413 00:22:57,344 --> 00:23:00,482 AND THAT I'M NOT SO FAR GONE THAT I CAN'T GET HIS HELP 414 00:23:00,482 --> 00:23:04,000 AND TURN MY LIFE AROUND BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME. 415 00:23:16,724 --> 00:23:19,103 Leneatha: I'M HERE AT DR. NOW'S CLINIC IN HOUSTON 416 00:23:19,103 --> 00:23:21,241 TO SEE IF HE'LL TAKE ME ON AS A PATIENT. 417 00:23:22,827 --> 00:23:25,000 SO I'M JUST PRAYING I'VE LOST A LITTLE WEIGHT 418 00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,620 SINCE THE LAST TIME I'VE WEIGHED, 419 00:23:27,620 --> 00:23:30,310 SO THAT I MIGHT EVEN BE UNDER 600. 420 00:23:38,034 --> 00:23:39,827 WAS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO SEE? 421 00:23:39,827 --> 00:23:41,344 NOPE. 422 00:23:41,344 --> 00:23:44,172 WELL, THAT'S WHAT WE'RE HERE FOR. 423 00:23:44,172 --> 00:23:48,827 WELL, THAT COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE, BUT IT'S STILL NOT GOOD. 424 00:23:48,827 --> 00:23:51,620 PART OF ME WAS WORRIED THAT IT WOULD BE HIGHER 425 00:23:51,620 --> 00:23:54,620 BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED MYSELF AT THE HOSPITAL, 426 00:23:54,620 --> 00:23:57,172 I WAS UP AROUND 615. 427 00:23:57,172 --> 00:23:59,655 SO I'VE ACTUALLY LOST SOME WEIGHT, WHICH IS GOOD, 428 00:23:59,655 --> 00:24:03,137 BUT IT'S STILL HUMILIATING TO SEE THAT NUMBER COME UP. 429 00:24:03,137 --> 00:24:07,241 AND NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE WHAT DR. NOW HAS TO SAY, 430 00:24:07,241 --> 00:24:09,931 AND I JUST REALLY HOPE THAT HE CAN PUT ME ON THE PATH 431 00:24:09,931 --> 00:24:11,586 TO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 432 00:24:16,551 --> 00:24:18,310 -HELLO. -All: HELLO. 433 00:24:18,310 --> 00:24:19,620 HOW YOU ALL DOING? 434 00:24:19,620 --> 00:24:21,413 -FINE. -Pam: ALL RIGHT. HOW ARE YOU? 435 00:24:21,413 --> 00:24:23,034 I'M DOING GOOD TOO. OKAY. 436 00:24:23,034 --> 00:24:25,241 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. AND YOU? 437 00:24:25,241 --> 00:24:27,758 LENEATHA.GOOD TO MEET YOU. 438 00:24:27,758 --> 00:24:29,827 SO WHO HAVE WE GOT HERE WITH YOU? 439 00:24:29,827 --> 00:24:32,586 I HAVE MY SISTER PAM AND OUR FRIEND FRANK. 440 00:24:32,586 --> 00:24:34,000 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 441 00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:35,758 I'M FINE, THANK YOU.FINE. HOW YOU DOING? 442 00:24:35,758 --> 00:24:40,034 SO HOW CLOSE YOU ARE, AND ARE THEY YOUR ENABLER 443 00:24:40,034 --> 00:24:41,413 OR ARE THEY GONNA HELP YOU? 444 00:24:41,413 --> 00:24:43,517 WELL, THIS IS MY BIG SISTER PAM, 445 00:24:43,517 --> 00:24:48,206 AND SHE DOESN'T REALLY ENABLE BECAUSE SHE'LL PUSH ME OUT, 446 00:24:48,206 --> 00:24:50,482 AND SHE DOESN'T CARE IF I GET UPSET. 447 00:24:50,482 --> 00:24:52,517 SHE'S GONNA SUPPORT ME BECAUSE SHE'S ACTUALLY 448 00:24:52,517 --> 00:24:53,965 ONE OF THE COOKS IN THE FAMILY, 449 00:24:53,965 --> 00:24:57,482 SO SHE SAID SHE'LL HELP ME WITH THE HEALTHIER ALTERNATIVES 450 00:24:57,482 --> 00:25:00,551 AND HELPING ME PREP MY FOOD FOR THE WEEK. 451 00:25:00,551 --> 00:25:01,689 AND THIS IS FRANK. 452 00:25:01,689 --> 00:25:02,862 I MET FRANK BECAUSE I'VE BEEN 453 00:25:02,862 --> 00:25:04,413 TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT BACK AND FORTH 454 00:25:04,413 --> 00:25:06,482 AND HE ACTUALLY OWNS A GYM BACK HOME. 455 00:25:06,482 --> 00:25:10,310 AND HE WOULD MAKE ME WORK OUT, AND THEN I JUST QUIT GOING. 456 00:25:10,310 --> 00:25:12,275 HE TRIES TO BEAT ME TO GET THERE, 457 00:25:12,275 --> 00:25:15,620 SO HE'S GONNA MAKE ME GET INTO THE GYM AND WORK OUT. 458 00:25:15,620 --> 00:25:18,931 ALL RIGHT, AND YOU HAVE DIABETES 459 00:25:18,931 --> 00:25:21,586 AND HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE 460 00:25:21,586 --> 00:25:24,034 AND SLEEP APNEA? 461 00:25:24,034 --> 00:25:25,724 YES, SIR. 462 00:25:25,724 --> 00:25:29,137 SO YOUR WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN TO A CRITICAL POINT WITH YOUR HEALTH 463 00:25:29,137 --> 00:25:31,103 AND YOU WANT TO CHANGE THAT? 464 00:25:31,103 --> 00:25:32,379 YES, SIR. 465 00:25:32,379 --> 00:25:36,275 OKAY, SO, WHAT SEEMS TO BE YOUR CHALLENGES 466 00:25:36,275 --> 00:25:38,103 FOR GAINING WEIGHT? 467 00:25:38,103 --> 00:25:40,172 SUGAR, SWEETS. 468 00:25:40,172 --> 00:25:41,931 SUGAR, AND YOU'RE DIABETIC 469 00:25:41,931 --> 00:25:43,758 AND YOU HAVE AN ISSUE WITH YOUR SUGAR? 470 00:25:43,758 --> 00:25:45,655 YES, SIR. 471 00:25:45,655 --> 00:25:49,034 SO, WHAT DO YOU USUALLY EAT? 472 00:25:49,034 --> 00:25:53,206 A LOT OF SNACK CAKES AND SODAS. 473 00:25:53,206 --> 00:25:57,689 SO YOU HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT THAT YOUR DIABETES 474 00:25:57,689 --> 00:25:59,413 GETS YOU TO CRAVE SUGAR, 475 00:25:59,413 --> 00:26:02,137 AND ALL THAT DOES IS TURN TO FAT. 476 00:26:02,137 --> 00:26:03,758 YES, SIR. I KNOW. 477 00:26:03,758 --> 00:26:07,793 ALL RIGHT, SO DO YOU EAT AT HOME OR DO YOU GO OUT TO EAT? 478 00:26:07,793 --> 00:26:09,448 MOSTLY AT HOME. 479 00:26:09,448 --> 00:26:13,103 SO WHO ELSE IS AT HOME BESIDES YOU? 480 00:26:13,103 --> 00:26:14,758 MY THREE-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER. 481 00:26:14,758 --> 00:26:18,137 OKAY, SO NO ENABLERS IN THE HOUSE. 482 00:26:18,137 --> 00:26:19,586 NO, SIR. 483 00:26:19,586 --> 00:26:22,758 OKAY. SO, FOR BREAKFAST, WHAT DO YOU EAT? 484 00:26:22,758 --> 00:26:25,586 MOST OF THE TIME I'LL STOP AT FAST FOOD 485 00:26:25,586 --> 00:26:28,689 AND GET SOME BREAKFAST AND THEN I'LL GO ON IN TO WORK. 486 00:26:28,689 --> 00:26:31,689 AND THEN AT WORK I'M BASICALLY OUT ON THE FLOORS ALL DAY, 487 00:26:31,689 --> 00:26:33,965 SO MOST OF THE TIME I DON'T GET TO EAT LUNCH, 488 00:26:33,965 --> 00:26:36,517 OR IF I EAT LUNCH I'LL GO TO THE CAFETERIA 489 00:26:36,517 --> 00:26:38,827 AND GET SOME CHICKEN STRIPS OR EITHER A BURGER. 490 00:26:38,827 --> 00:26:43,655 AND THEN WHEN I GET HOME, I'LL EAT SNACKS AND CAKES AND... 491 00:26:43,655 --> 00:26:47,172 I'M NOT REALLY HUNGRY, I JUST CRAVE THE SWEETS 492 00:26:47,172 --> 00:26:48,689 AND I JUST SIT THERE AND JUST EAT IT 493 00:26:48,689 --> 00:26:50,034 BECAUSE I HAVE IT SITTING THERE. 494 00:26:50,034 --> 00:26:53,034 SO IF THAT'S THE CASE, WHY BUY IT, THEN, 495 00:26:53,034 --> 00:26:55,482 IF YOU KNOW IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOU? 496 00:26:55,482 --> 00:26:58,482 THAT'S A GOOD QUESTION. 497 00:26:58,482 --> 00:27:00,931 OKAY. DO YOU DO ANY EXERCISE? 498 00:27:00,931 --> 00:27:02,965 NOT ANYMORE. I HAVEN'T BEEN. 499 00:27:02,965 --> 00:27:05,862 SO IF YOU ARE EATING SUGAR SNACKS FOR NO REASON 500 00:27:05,862 --> 00:27:07,379 THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHY YOU BUY, 501 00:27:07,379 --> 00:27:10,793 AND YOU DON'T EXERCISE AND DO THINGS TO GET YOU HEALTHY, 502 00:27:10,793 --> 00:27:13,896 WHAT DO YOU EXPECT US TO BE ABLE TO CHANGE FOR YOU? 503 00:27:13,896 --> 00:27:16,172 I'M HOPING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WILL HELP ME CHANGE. 504 00:27:16,172 --> 00:27:18,724 REALLY? YES. 505 00:27:18,724 --> 00:27:21,137 OKAY, THE SURGERY IS NOT GONNA BE A SOLUTION 506 00:27:21,137 --> 00:27:23,689 FOR YOUR EATING DISORDER. 507 00:27:23,689 --> 00:27:25,965 THE SURGERY IS GOING TO PHYSICALLY LIMIT YOU 508 00:27:25,965 --> 00:27:27,310 FROM EATING A LOT, 509 00:27:27,310 --> 00:27:30,896 BUT THAT EFFECT IS GOING TO FADE AWAY IN FIVE YEARS 510 00:27:30,896 --> 00:27:33,172 AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE A LONG-TERM RESULT FROM THAT. 511 00:27:33,172 --> 00:27:36,586 AND SO FAR YOU HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO CONTROL IT 512 00:27:36,586 --> 00:27:39,551 OR YOU HAVEN'T HAD A DESIRE TO CONTROL IT. 513 00:27:39,551 --> 00:27:41,068 WHICH ONE? 514 00:27:41,068 --> 00:27:44,241 I THINK IT'S MORE, I HAD THE DESIRE TO DO IT, 515 00:27:44,241 --> 00:27:48,068 BUT I THINK IT WAS THE WILLPOWER TO STAY AWAY FROM IT. 516 00:27:48,068 --> 00:27:50,965 I DON'T... 517 00:27:50,965 --> 00:27:53,413 SO THE WILLPOWER IS THE ISSUE. 518 00:27:53,413 --> 00:27:54,551 YES, SIR. OKAY. 519 00:27:54,551 --> 00:27:56,517 WELL, I CAN GIVE YOU THE ROAD MAP 520 00:27:56,517 --> 00:27:58,517 TO HELP YOU DO YOU WHAT YOU NEED, 521 00:27:58,517 --> 00:28:01,827 BUT IT'S NOT GONNA MATTER UNLESS YOU MAKE THE CHOICE TO DO IT. 522 00:28:01,827 --> 00:28:04,862 AND THAT'S NOT SOMETHING WE CAN DO FOR YOU. 523 00:28:04,862 --> 00:28:06,655 BUT AT THIS POINT IN YOUR HEALTH, 524 00:28:06,655 --> 00:28:08,827 YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME TO DO THAT. 525 00:28:08,827 --> 00:28:11,517 SO IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT YOU START TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT, 526 00:28:11,517 --> 00:28:14,137 AND THAT MEANS THAT YOU NEED TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABITS. 527 00:28:14,137 --> 00:28:15,793 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 528 00:28:15,793 --> 00:28:17,310 YES, SIR. 529 00:28:17,310 --> 00:28:19,862 OKAY, I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME READING MATERIAL 530 00:28:19,862 --> 00:28:23,068 THAT HAS A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET IN IT. 531 00:28:23,068 --> 00:28:26,724 THAT FOCUSES ON PROTEIN AND AVOIDS CARBS. 532 00:28:26,724 --> 00:28:30,068 AND GIVE YOU HOW TO EAT THREE TIMES A DAY, 533 00:28:30,068 --> 00:28:32,413 LIKE 400 CALORIES PER MEAL. 534 00:28:32,413 --> 00:28:37,482 AND IF YOU DO THAT, YOU CAN LOSE 50 POUNDS A MONTH, OKAY? 535 00:28:37,482 --> 00:28:41,551 BUT THE GOAL I'M GIVING YOU IS TO LOSE 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 536 00:28:41,551 --> 00:28:44,068 SO THAT SHOULD BE VERY EASY FOR YOU 537 00:28:44,068 --> 00:28:46,517 IF YOU DO THE DIET, OKAY? 538 00:28:46,517 --> 00:28:48,827 AND IF YOU DO THAT, THEN WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 539 00:28:48,827 --> 00:28:50,965 BECOME AN OPTION FOR YOU. 540 00:28:50,965 --> 00:28:54,379 BUT IF YOU HAVE THIS SORT OF LACK OF WILLPOWER 541 00:28:54,379 --> 00:28:56,068 TO IGNORE YOUR EATING HABIT, 542 00:28:56,068 --> 00:28:57,482 YOU CAN GAIN YOUR WEIGHT BACK. 543 00:28:57,482 --> 00:28:58,517 YOU GOT THAT? 544 00:28:58,517 --> 00:29:00,551 YES, SIR. OKAY, GOOD. 545 00:29:00,551 --> 00:29:03,000 BECAUSE RIGHT NOW YOU'RE 40. 546 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:04,068 I GUARANTEE YOU, 547 00:29:04,068 --> 00:29:05,965 IF YOU DON'T TURN YOUR SITUATION AROUND, 548 00:29:05,965 --> 00:29:08,034 YOUR HEALTH IS GONNA GO DOWN 549 00:29:08,034 --> 00:29:11,172 AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA SURVIVE A COMMON COLD 550 00:29:11,172 --> 00:29:14,206 OR EVEN FLU OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. 551 00:29:14,206 --> 00:29:17,896 THERE'LL BE NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO TO SAVE YOU AT THAT POINT. 552 00:29:17,896 --> 00:29:20,517 SO THIS IS VERY DANGEROUS SITUATION YOU'RE IN. 553 00:29:20,517 --> 00:29:24,275 YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT, AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE CHANGES. 554 00:29:24,275 --> 00:29:26,448 WHICH ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT? 555 00:29:26,448 --> 00:29:31,655 BEING A LITTLE BIT HUNGRY OR SAVING YOUR LIFE, OKAY? 556 00:29:31,655 --> 00:29:34,241 SO, WHICH ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT, 557 00:29:34,241 --> 00:29:36,310 SAVING YOUR LIFE OR BEING HUNGRY? 558 00:29:36,310 --> 00:29:37,758 SAVING MY LIFE. 559 00:29:37,758 --> 00:29:40,689 SO REMEMBER THAT WHEN YOU'RE HUNGRY, OKAY? 560 00:29:40,689 --> 00:29:42,206 YES, SIR. OKAY. 561 00:29:42,206 --> 00:29:45,068 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU READING MATERIAL THAT INCLUDES THE DIET, 562 00:29:45,068 --> 00:29:47,413 TO START THAT ALONG WITH SOME EXERCISES 563 00:29:47,413 --> 00:29:49,000 I WANT YOU TO DO EACH DAY. 564 00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:51,172 AND I WANT TO SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS 565 00:29:51,172 --> 00:29:54,034 WITH A WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL OF 60 POUNDS BY THEN. 566 00:29:54,034 --> 00:29:55,827 DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 567 00:29:55,827 --> 00:29:57,379 YES. OKAY. 568 00:29:57,379 --> 00:30:00,034 BUT I KNOW I CAN DO IT. 569 00:30:00,034 --> 00:30:03,413 OKAY, SO WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING, 570 00:30:03,413 --> 00:30:07,137 DO NOT BUY STUFF ON THE LIST TO AVOID. 571 00:30:07,137 --> 00:30:08,482 OKAY. OKAY? 572 00:30:08,482 --> 00:30:10,931 THAT INCLUDES SUGARY STUFF, OKAY? 573 00:30:10,931 --> 00:30:12,137 OKAY. 574 00:30:12,137 --> 00:30:15,448 BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU. 575 00:30:15,448 --> 00:30:17,655 YOU'RE THE ONE IN THE DRIVING SEAT. 576 00:30:17,655 --> 00:30:19,482 AND YOU'RE THE ONE THAT YOUR GONNA HAVE 577 00:30:19,482 --> 00:30:21,413 CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOR. 578 00:30:21,413 --> 00:30:24,137 AND NO MATTER WHAT EVERYBODY TELL YOU, 579 00:30:24,137 --> 00:30:27,517 THIS WON'T WORK UNLESS YOU TAKE THE FIRST STEP 580 00:30:27,517 --> 00:30:30,793 AND YOU DECIDE TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE. 581 00:30:30,793 --> 00:30:32,344 AND THERE'S TIME TO DO THAT. 582 00:30:32,344 --> 00:30:34,413 BUT IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY. 583 00:30:34,413 --> 00:30:36,413 NOBODY SAID IT'S GONNA BE EASY, 584 00:30:36,413 --> 00:30:40,000 BUT YOU HAVE TO BE DETERMINED TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO, 585 00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:41,620 TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND. 586 00:30:41,620 --> 00:30:44,448 AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE THAT DETERMINATION 587 00:30:44,448 --> 00:30:47,482 TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE, NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, 588 00:30:47,482 --> 00:30:50,586 IT'S NOT GONNA BE EFFECTIVE, OKAY? 589 00:30:50,586 --> 00:30:52,551 BUT IF YOU COME BACK IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS 590 00:30:52,551 --> 00:30:56,655 AND YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT OR YOU LOST A FEW POUNDS, 591 00:30:56,655 --> 00:30:59,724 THEN I KNOW THAT WE'RE NOT GONNA MAKE ANY HEADWAY WITH YOU. 592 00:30:59,724 --> 00:31:01,896 BECAUSE THAT WILL SHOW ME THAT SAVING YOUR LIFE 593 00:31:01,896 --> 00:31:03,793 IS STILL NOT A PRIORITY FOR YOU 594 00:31:03,793 --> 00:31:06,862 TO THE POINT WHERE YOU'RE READY TO DO WHAT DO YOU NEED. 595 00:31:06,862 --> 00:31:08,896 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT, RIGHT?YES. 596 00:31:08,896 --> 00:31:14,275 OKAY, SO THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO MAKE THE CHANGES NOW 597 00:31:14,275 --> 00:31:16,655 BEFORE YOU RUN OUT OF TIME, OKAY? 598 00:31:16,655 --> 00:31:17,827 OKAY. 599 00:31:17,827 --> 00:31:19,827 ALL RIGHT. ANY QUESTIONS? 600 00:31:19,827 --> 00:31:20,931 NO, SIR. 601 00:31:20,931 --> 00:31:22,724 OKAY. SEE YOU SOON. 602 00:31:22,724 --> 00:31:24,862 NICE TO MEET YOU.NICE TO MEET YOU. 603 00:31:24,862 --> 00:31:27,793 AND NICE TO MEET YOU.YOU TOO. 604 00:31:27,793 --> 00:31:29,275 AND WE'LL SEE YOU ALL LATER. 605 00:31:29,275 --> 00:31:31,344 Frank: ALL RIGHT. OKAY. 606 00:31:31,344 --> 00:31:33,034 THANK YOU.OKAY. 607 00:31:40,172 --> 00:31:42,689 Dr. Nowzaradan: HOPEFULLY, LENEATHA IS TELLING ME THE TRUTH. 608 00:31:42,689 --> 00:31:44,482 WHEN SHE SAYS SHE'S READY TO DO 609 00:31:44,482 --> 00:31:46,448 WHAT IT TAKES TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND. 610 00:31:46,448 --> 00:31:49,172 BECAUSE AT HER WEIGHT AND AGE 611 00:31:49,172 --> 00:31:52,068 AND WITH ALL THE HEALTH ISSUES SHE'S STARTING TO HAVE. 612 00:31:52,068 --> 00:31:54,344 SHE DOESN'T HAVE LONG TO CHANGE THINGS 613 00:31:54,344 --> 00:31:56,517 BEFORE HER BODY GETS TO A BREAKING POINT 614 00:31:56,517 --> 00:31:59,344 AND HER HEALTH STARTS TO DETERIORATE RAPIDLY. 615 00:31:59,344 --> 00:32:03,172 AND MY CONCERN IS, FROM WHAT SHE DESCRIBES 616 00:32:03,172 --> 00:32:04,931 ABOUT HER EATING HABITS, 617 00:32:04,931 --> 00:32:07,344 SHE DOESN'T REALLY THINK SHE'S OVEREATING. 618 00:32:07,344 --> 00:32:10,724 SO THAT'S CONCERNING, AND IT'S ALSO VERY CONCERNING 619 00:32:10,724 --> 00:32:14,482 THAT SHE'S WILLING TO EAT A LOT OF SUGARY FOOD AS A DIABETIC 620 00:32:14,482 --> 00:32:17,793 WHEN SHE KNOWS THE RISK AND DANGERS OF THAT. 621 00:32:17,793 --> 00:32:19,827 BUT HOPEFULLY SHE GOES OVER THE DIET 622 00:32:19,827 --> 00:32:21,655 AND STARTS TO UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE 623 00:32:21,655 --> 00:32:25,000 BETWEEN WHAT SHE'S BEEN DOING AND WHAT SHE NEEDS TO DO 624 00:32:25,000 --> 00:32:29,206 AND SHOW ME SHE'S WILLING TO TRY AND MAKE SOME OF THOSE CHANGES 625 00:32:29,206 --> 00:32:31,689 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, THEN THERE WON'T BE MUCH 626 00:32:31,689 --> 00:32:33,241 WE CAN REALLY DO FOR HER, 627 00:32:33,241 --> 00:32:35,448 AND WE WON'T MOVE AHEAD WITH HER. 628 00:32:37,689 --> 00:32:39,965 Leneatha: I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. 629 00:32:39,965 --> 00:32:43,724 I APPRECIATE DR. NOW AND THAT HE'S GOING TO HELP ME, 630 00:32:43,724 --> 00:32:45,413 AND I'M EXCITED ABOUT THAT. 631 00:32:45,413 --> 00:32:49,103 BUT TO LOSE 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 632 00:32:49,103 --> 00:32:53,517 THAT SOUNDS LIKE A LOT, AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO IT. 633 00:32:53,517 --> 00:32:56,103 AND HEARING THE DOCTOR SAY THAT I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME, 634 00:32:56,103 --> 00:32:58,448 THAT TAKES IT TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL, 635 00:32:58,448 --> 00:33:02,137 BUT I GUESS I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. 636 00:33:02,137 --> 00:33:05,344 SO, THE ONLY THING TO DO IS TO HEAD BACK HOME 637 00:33:05,344 --> 00:33:08,758 AND WORK MY HARDEST TO MEET THAT GOAL 638 00:33:08,758 --> 00:33:12,379 AND SHOW DR. NOW THAT I CAN DO IT NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES. 639 00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:32,103 I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. 640 00:33:32,103 --> 00:33:33,931 YOU HUNGRY? YES. 641 00:33:33,931 --> 00:33:35,448 YOU WANT TO HELP MOMMY COOK? 642 00:33:35,448 --> 00:33:37,275 YES, PLEASE, YES. 643 00:33:37,275 --> 00:33:38,620 COME ON. 644 00:33:41,482 --> 00:33:43,896 Leneatha: IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE I SAW DR. NOW, 645 00:33:43,896 --> 00:33:46,793 AND I'M DOING MY BEST TO FOLLOW HIS PROGRAM, 646 00:33:46,793 --> 00:33:49,758 BUT LIFE HAS BEEN MAKING IT HARD. 647 00:33:50,586 --> 00:33:52,482 AFTER WE GOT BACK FROM HOUSTON, 648 00:33:52,482 --> 00:33:55,931 IT JUST TOOK A LITTLE WHILE FOR ME TO GO SHOPPING. 649 00:33:55,931 --> 00:33:58,137 BETWEEN WORKING AND TAKING CARE OF MY DAUGHTER, 650 00:33:58,137 --> 00:33:59,724 EVERY ONE OF MY DAYS IS FULL, 651 00:33:59,724 --> 00:34:02,000 AND SO IT'S BEEN HARDER THAN YOU WOULD THINK 652 00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:03,758 TO EXERCISE TWO TIMES A DAY 653 00:34:03,758 --> 00:34:07,000 AND DO ALL THE SHOPPING I NEED TO DO TO DO THE DIET. 654 00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:09,827 AND THERE'S BEEN SOME DAYS WHERE MY SCHEDULE WAS SO TIGHT, 655 00:34:09,827 --> 00:34:13,344 THAT FAST FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE SENSE. 656 00:34:13,344 --> 00:34:16,034 BUT I KNOW MY NEXT MONTH HAS TO BE BETTER. 657 00:34:18,448 --> 00:34:20,413 SO I'M TRYING TO MAKE MORE MEALS AT HOME 658 00:34:20,413 --> 00:34:22,689 AND GET USED TO COOKING FOR MYSELF 659 00:34:22,689 --> 00:34:25,862 SO THAT I CAN CATCH UP TO THE GOAL THAT DR. NOW GAVE ME. 660 00:34:28,724 --> 00:34:29,689 MOMMY? YES, MA'AM? 661 00:34:29,689 --> 00:34:31,482 WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 662 00:34:31,482 --> 00:34:34,448 I'M COOKING. WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 663 00:34:34,448 --> 00:34:36,551 I'M COOKING. 664 00:34:36,551 --> 00:34:38,862 ALL RIGHT, YOU READY? HUH? 665 00:34:38,862 --> 00:34:40,137 IT'S DONE. 666 00:34:41,758 --> 00:34:43,448 EVERY DAY I SPEND WITH MY LITTLE GIRL 667 00:34:43,448 --> 00:34:47,000 IS JUST ANOTHER REASON WHY I GOT TO GET MYSELF RIGHT -- 668 00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:49,482 SO I CAN BE THERE FOR HER. 669 00:34:49,482 --> 00:34:52,034 I DO FEEL LIKE WE'RE TAKING THIS JOURNEY TOGETHER 670 00:34:52,034 --> 00:34:54,448 BECAUSE I WANT TO SET THE EXAMPLE FOR MY DAUGHTER 671 00:34:54,448 --> 00:34:58,000 THAT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO. 672 00:35:00,034 --> 00:35:01,551 SHRIMP TASTE GOOD. 673 00:35:02,517 --> 00:35:04,275 LOOK. 674 00:35:04,275 --> 00:35:05,551 MMM! MMM-MMM! 675 00:35:05,551 --> 00:35:08,241 AND I'M DOING OKAY. 676 00:35:08,241 --> 00:35:09,310 I DROPPED A FEW POUNDS, 677 00:35:09,310 --> 00:35:11,379 AND I'M MOVING A LITTLE BETTER, I THINK. 678 00:35:11,379 --> 00:35:13,586 SO I JUST HAVE TO BUILD ON THAT FOR NEXT MONTH 679 00:35:13,586 --> 00:35:15,965 SO THAT WHEN I GO DOWN TO HOUSTON NEXT TIME, 680 00:35:15,965 --> 00:35:17,413 DR. NOW WILL BE PROUD OF ME 681 00:35:17,413 --> 00:35:19,275 AND HE'LL APPROVE ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 682 00:35:19,275 --> 00:35:21,068 LET'S BLOW IT. 683 00:35:21,068 --> 00:35:24,275 SEE? BLOW IT. 684 00:35:33,448 --> 00:35:36,793 I HAD EVERY INTENTION ON MAKING THIS MONTH 685 00:35:36,793 --> 00:35:39,724 THE ONE WHERE I GOT ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 686 00:35:39,724 --> 00:35:43,586 I HAD A PLAN TO DO THE HEALTHY SHOPPING, 687 00:35:43,586 --> 00:35:45,517 TO LEARN THE HEALTHY COOKING, 688 00:35:45,517 --> 00:35:48,275 TO FIT IN THE EXERCISE TWICE A DAY. 689 00:35:48,275 --> 00:35:50,379 AND AT THE FIRST OF THE MONTH, 690 00:35:50,379 --> 00:35:51,793 THERE WAS MAYBE TWO OR THREE DAYS, 691 00:35:51,793 --> 00:35:53,793 WHERE I WAS DOING REALLY GOOD. 692 00:35:53,793 --> 00:35:56,655 AND I DIDN'T EVEN MISS ANY OF MY HOURS AT WORK. 693 00:35:56,655 --> 00:35:58,758 WELL, WOULDN'T YOU KNOW, 694 00:35:58,758 --> 00:36:01,896 THAT SAME WEEK WHEN I WAS FINALLY FEELING GOOD, 695 00:36:01,896 --> 00:36:03,724 MY WORK GOT UPSET WITH ME 696 00:36:03,724 --> 00:36:05,896 FOR HAVING TO TAKE OFF TOO MUCH TIME. 697 00:36:05,896 --> 00:36:08,379 SO HERE HERE I AM PUSHING MY HARDEST 698 00:36:08,379 --> 00:36:11,172 TO GET ON THE RIGHT TRACK WITH MY HEALTH, 699 00:36:11,172 --> 00:36:14,310 AND IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING THAT I WOULD GET PENALIZED FOR THAT. 700 00:36:34,862 --> 00:36:36,620 I'M GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE A JOB, 701 00:36:36,620 --> 00:36:39,172 AND I'M GRATEFUL THAT I CAN STILL WORK, 702 00:36:39,172 --> 00:36:42,000 BUT I DON'T THINK ANYBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS 703 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:44,344 AND HOW HUGE OF A STRUGGLE IT IS 704 00:36:44,344 --> 00:36:47,862 FOR ME TO BE AT WORK AND TO DO WHAT I DO. 705 00:36:47,862 --> 00:36:51,482 I DON'T THINK ANYBODY REALLY THINKS ABOUT IT. 706 00:36:51,482 --> 00:36:55,241 SO ALL THIS STUFF THAT'S HAPPENING AT WORK, 707 00:36:55,241 --> 00:36:57,827 IT'S NOT GONNA BE A GOOD TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE AGAIN 708 00:36:57,827 --> 00:37:00,586 TO GO TO HOUSTON FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT. 709 00:37:00,586 --> 00:37:03,034 I CALLED DR. NOW'S OFFICE 710 00:37:03,034 --> 00:37:05,413 AND TOLD HIM THAT I NEEDED TO PUSH IT BACK 711 00:37:05,413 --> 00:37:08,482 BECAUSE I CAN'T RISK TAKING THE TIME OFF OF WORK. 712 00:37:08,482 --> 00:37:12,241 BUT I'M STILL DETERMINED TO MAKE MY APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH. 713 00:37:12,241 --> 00:37:13,655 I'M STILL DOING THE DIET. 714 00:37:13,655 --> 00:37:15,827 ONCE I CAN PUT THIS MONTH BEHIND ME, 715 00:37:15,827 --> 00:37:17,206 THEN I HAVE AN EXTRA MONTH 716 00:37:17,206 --> 00:37:20,379 TO GET MY WEIGHT DOWN TO WHERE A DR. NOW NEEDS IT. 717 00:37:20,379 --> 00:37:21,896 BUT IT'S FRUSTRATING BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE 718 00:37:21,896 --> 00:37:26,310 I'M BACK WHERE I STARTED, AND THAT REALLY STRESSES ME OUT. 719 00:37:26,310 --> 00:37:29,172 AND THAT CAN'T BE GOOD FOR MY HEALTH EITHER. 720 00:37:29,172 --> 00:37:32,000 I STILL GOT MY GIRL. SHE'S MY GUIDING LIGHT. 721 00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,620 IN THAT WAY SHE'S HELPING ME 722 00:37:34,620 --> 00:37:39,344 BECAUSE SHE'S MAKING ME ASPIRE TO TRY HARDER AND KEEP PUSHING. 723 00:37:39,344 --> 00:37:41,000 SOME DAYS I FEEL HELPLESS 724 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:43,724 AND LIKE I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO TURN THIS AROUND, 725 00:37:43,724 --> 00:37:46,137 AND I JUST WAIT A MINUTE AND SHE'LL MAKE ME SMILE 726 00:37:46,137 --> 00:37:48,379 AND REMIND ME WHAT I'M FIGHTING FOR 727 00:37:48,379 --> 00:37:50,344 AND THEN TELL MYSELF I CAN DO IT 728 00:37:50,344 --> 00:37:52,689 SO I CAN TELL HER WE'RE GONNA DO IT. 729 00:37:57,000 --> 00:37:59,275 I'M STILL FOCUSED ON GETTING THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 730 00:37:59,275 --> 00:38:02,206 NEXT TIME I SEE DR. NOW. 731 00:38:02,206 --> 00:38:03,896 IT'S JUST TAKING LONGER THAN I WANTED 732 00:38:03,896 --> 00:38:07,000 AND WE'RE HITTING SOME BUMPS IN THE ROAD. 733 00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:11,103 AND SOME DAYS I DON'T KNOW QUITE WHAT TO BELIEVE. 734 00:38:11,103 --> 00:38:12,586 BUT IF I'M GONNA MAKE IT OR NOT, 735 00:38:12,586 --> 00:38:15,862 I'M GONNA MAKE SURE MY DAUGHTER SEES ME FIGHTING. 736 00:38:35,310 --> 00:38:37,482 AFTER I RESCHEDULED MY LAST APPOINTMENT, 737 00:38:37,482 --> 00:38:39,758 I GOT A CALL FROM DR. NOW'S OFFICE TELLING ME 738 00:38:39,758 --> 00:38:41,896 HE WANTED TO DO A VIDEO CALL WITH ME, 739 00:38:41,896 --> 00:38:43,827 SO THAT'S HAPPENING TODAY 740 00:38:43,827 --> 00:38:46,310 AND I'M NOT REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING HIM SEE ME 741 00:38:46,310 --> 00:38:49,413 BECAUSE I'M JUST NOT FEELING GREAT ABOUT WHERE I'M AT. 742 00:38:49,413 --> 00:38:50,896 TIMES HAVE BEEN A LITTLE TOUGH 743 00:38:50,896 --> 00:38:53,068 BECAUSE KENLYN HAS BEEN STRUGGLING WITH HER HEALTH 744 00:38:53,068 --> 00:38:55,482 AND HAVING A TOUGH TIME BREATHING. 745 00:38:55,482 --> 00:38:57,034 WE'VE BEEN GETTING HER TREATED FOR THAT 746 00:38:57,034 --> 00:38:58,896 AND TAKING HER TO THE DOCTOR 747 00:38:58,896 --> 00:39:01,724 AND IT HURTS MY HEART TO SEE HER LIKE THAT, 748 00:39:01,724 --> 00:39:04,689 AND I KNOW SHE GOT THOSE PROBLEMS FROM ME. 749 00:39:04,689 --> 00:39:07,241 SO I HOPE DR. NOW IS UNDERSTANDING OF THE SITUATION 750 00:39:07,241 --> 00:39:11,206 I'VE BEEN IN AND THAT I'VE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING. 751 00:39:14,482 --> 00:39:15,758 HI, LEN. 752 00:39:15,758 --> 00:39:16,758 HEY, DR. NOW. 753 00:39:16,758 --> 00:39:17,965 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 754 00:39:17,965 --> 00:39:19,137 I'M DOING GOOD. AND YOU? 755 00:39:19,137 --> 00:39:22,482 GOOD. IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU. 756 00:39:22,482 --> 00:39:23,793 WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU? 757 00:39:23,793 --> 00:39:25,448 I'VE BEEN HAVING SOME ISSUES GOING ON 758 00:39:25,448 --> 00:39:27,241 I'VE BEEN HAVING TO DEAL WITH MY DAUGHTER 759 00:39:27,241 --> 00:39:29,482 AND TAKING HER BACK AND FORTH TO HER APPOINTMENTS 760 00:39:29,482 --> 00:39:31,862 AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT I CAN BE OFF AT WORK 761 00:39:31,862 --> 00:39:33,620 WITH BEING THE ONLY ONE AT WORK. 762 00:39:33,620 --> 00:39:35,172 SO IT'S BEEN KIND OF CONFLICTING, 763 00:39:35,172 --> 00:39:38,793 SO I'M HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET OUT TO HOUSTON. 764 00:39:38,793 --> 00:39:40,586 WELL, I'M SORRY TO HEAR ALL THAT, 765 00:39:40,586 --> 00:39:43,000 BUT IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT 766 00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:44,827 SINCE I SAW YOU LAST, 767 00:39:44,827 --> 00:39:47,379 EVEN THOUGH YOU TOLD ME YOU HAD WHEN I CALLED YOU. 768 00:39:47,379 --> 00:39:49,793 DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'VE LOST MUCH? 769 00:39:49,793 --> 00:39:52,827 I'VE LOST A LITTLE, BUT NOT AS MUCH AS I NEED. 770 00:39:52,827 --> 00:39:54,931 WELL, IT'S BEEN SEVERAL MONTHS, 771 00:39:54,931 --> 00:39:58,344 AND WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET YOU TO LOSE WEIGHT, 772 00:39:58,344 --> 00:40:00,482 SO WHAT DO YOU THINK THE SOLUTION WILL BE? 773 00:40:00,482 --> 00:40:03,310 DO THE DIET LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO DO IT. 774 00:40:03,310 --> 00:40:05,103 YEAH, BUT THAT'S A FIGURE OF SPEECH. 775 00:40:05,103 --> 00:40:07,448 IT NEEDS SOME ACTION BEHIND IT. 776 00:40:07,448 --> 00:40:09,275 WHAT HAPPENED WITH THAT? 777 00:40:09,275 --> 00:40:11,275 I DIDN'T DO THE ACTION BEHIND IT. 778 00:40:11,275 --> 00:40:14,172 WELL, BUT YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME, 779 00:40:14,172 --> 00:40:15,655 AND THIS IS SEVERAL MONTHS 780 00:40:15,655 --> 00:40:19,448 AND WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET YOU TO LOSE ANY WEIGHT. 781 00:40:19,448 --> 00:40:21,413 SO CAN YOU TELL ME WHY YOU'RE OVEREATING? 782 00:40:21,413 --> 00:40:24,000 BECAUSE YOU'RE HUNGRY OR WHAT? 783 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:26,551 NO, I DON'T FIND MYSELF BEING HUNGRY, 784 00:40:26,551 --> 00:40:27,896 AND LIKE I SAID, 785 00:40:27,896 --> 00:40:30,655 MY ISSUE IS THE PORTION SIZE THAT I OVEREAT 786 00:40:30,655 --> 00:40:32,172 WHEN I DO SIT DOWN AND EAT A MEAL. 787 00:40:32,172 --> 00:40:34,965 INSTEAD OF HAVING ONE PIECE OF CHICKEN, I HAVE TWO. 788 00:40:34,965 --> 00:40:36,379 IT'S NOT AN ALL-DAY THING 789 00:40:36,379 --> 00:40:38,034 BECAUSE I DON'T EAT ALL DAY LONG. 790 00:40:38,034 --> 00:40:39,931 IT'S WHEN I SIT DOWN AND I DO EAT THE PORTION SIZE 791 00:40:39,931 --> 00:40:41,241 OF WHAT I'M EATING 792 00:40:41,241 --> 00:40:43,344 BECAUSE I HAVE MADE THE DRASTIC CHANGES 793 00:40:43,344 --> 00:40:44,965 IN THE SWEETS AND THE SODAS 794 00:40:44,965 --> 00:40:47,241 BECAUSE I STILL HAVEN'T HAD THAT, 795 00:40:47,241 --> 00:40:49,931 BUT IT'S STILL PORTION SIZES OF WHAT I'M EATING. 796 00:40:49,931 --> 00:40:53,517 EXPLAIN TO ME WHY YOU'RE EATING WHEN YOU'RE NOT HUNGRY. 797 00:40:53,517 --> 00:40:57,724 I GUESS I FEEL LIKE I HADN'T EATEN YET, SO I BETTER EAT. 798 00:40:57,724 --> 00:40:59,655 THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE, 799 00:40:59,655 --> 00:41:02,206 BECAUSE YOU SAY YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF 800 00:41:02,206 --> 00:41:04,000 AND FOOD IS DOING THAT TO YOU. 801 00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:06,689 SO YOU DON'T NEED TO EAT ALL THE TIME. 802 00:41:06,689 --> 00:41:08,172 YOU FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 803 00:41:08,172 --> 00:41:11,034 NO. YOU'RE GONNA STARVE TO DEATH IF YOU DON'T EAT. 804 00:41:11,034 --> 00:41:12,551 EVEN IF I AM FAT. 805 00:41:12,551 --> 00:41:15,137 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, YOU'RE GONNA STARVE? 806 00:41:15,137 --> 00:41:17,206 YOU STILL HAVE TO EAT FOR NUTRITIONAL REASONS. 807 00:41:17,206 --> 00:41:18,758 IT DON'T MATTER HOW BIG I AM. 808 00:41:18,758 --> 00:41:19,896 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, 809 00:41:19,896 --> 00:41:22,758 BUT YOU'VE STILL GOT TO EAT. 810 00:41:22,758 --> 00:41:27,137 LEN, IF YOU PUT THE MATH OVER AND LOOK AT THE FOOD 811 00:41:27,137 --> 00:41:29,620 THAT YOU HAVE EATEN SO FAR, 812 00:41:29,620 --> 00:41:31,586 YOU HAVE EATEN THE FOOD THAT BELONGED 813 00:41:31,586 --> 00:41:33,655 THE NEXT FOUR YEARS AHEAD OF TIME. 814 00:41:33,655 --> 00:41:37,241 AND YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO EAT, BUT NOT YOUR WAY. 815 00:41:37,241 --> 00:41:39,827 YOU'RE NOT GONNA STARVE FOR A VERY LONG TIME. 816 00:41:39,827 --> 00:41:42,448 I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, BUT EVERYBODY'S GOT TO EAT. 817 00:41:42,448 --> 00:41:45,103 AND I FOLLOW WHAT YOU'RE SAYING ABOUT STILL OVEREATING 818 00:41:45,103 --> 00:41:46,275 BUT NOT THE FOOD FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS 819 00:41:46,275 --> 00:41:48,379 BECAUSE THAT DON'T EVEN MAKE SENSE. 820 00:41:48,379 --> 00:41:50,724 BUT I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 821 00:41:50,724 --> 00:41:54,448 OKAY, LEN, DO YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE? 822 00:41:54,448 --> 00:41:56,137 I DO. 823 00:41:56,137 --> 00:41:58,896 IF YOU VALUE YOUR LIFE, THEN YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND 824 00:41:58,896 --> 00:42:02,310 THAT YOU'RE PUTTING YOUR LIFE IN JEOPARDY WITH YOUR WEIGHT 825 00:42:02,310 --> 00:42:04,034 BECAUSE IT'S GONNA AFFECT 826 00:42:04,034 --> 00:42:06,241 EVERY ORGAN AND SYSTEM IN YOUR BODY, 827 00:42:06,241 --> 00:42:10,000 AND ALL THAT IS BECAUSE YOU'RE OVEREATING 828 00:42:10,000 --> 00:42:12,827 AND THERE IS NO REASON FOR YOU TO OVEREAT NOW, 829 00:42:12,827 --> 00:42:15,689 AND THERE NEVER WAS, BUT NOW YOU HAVE A DIET 830 00:42:15,689 --> 00:42:17,896 AND ALL KINDS OF INSTRUCTION THAT WE GIVE YOU. 831 00:42:17,896 --> 00:42:20,344 TO UNDERSTAND THE CHANGES YOU NEED TO MAKE 832 00:42:20,344 --> 00:42:22,551 TO LOSE WEIGHT AND SAVE YOUR LIFE. 833 00:42:22,551 --> 00:42:25,241 YOU KNOW YOU'RE DIABETIC AND YOU HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE 834 00:42:25,241 --> 00:42:26,724 AND ALL KINDS OF ISSUES. 835 00:42:26,724 --> 00:42:28,827 ONE OF THESE DAYS, YOU'RE GONNA RUN OUT OF TIME. 836 00:42:28,827 --> 00:42:31,206 IF ANYTHING GOES WRONG WITH YOU, 837 00:42:31,206 --> 00:42:34,103 THERE'S NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO TO SAVE YOU. 838 00:42:34,103 --> 00:42:35,482 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 839 00:42:35,482 --> 00:42:37,413 YES, SIR. 840 00:42:37,413 --> 00:42:41,793 SO WHICH ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT? THE FOOD OR SAVING YOUR LIFE? 841 00:42:41,793 --> 00:42:43,827 WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT IS MY LIFE. 842 00:42:43,827 --> 00:42:45,068 OKAY. 843 00:42:45,068 --> 00:42:47,172 SO WHEN ARE YOU GONNA MAKE THOSE CHANGES 844 00:42:47,172 --> 00:42:49,206 THAT WE'RE GONNA SEE SOME ACTUAL WEIGHT LOSS 845 00:42:49,206 --> 00:42:51,310 AND IMPROVEMENT WITH YOUR HEALTH? 846 00:42:51,310 --> 00:42:53,689 I'M GONNA START MAKING THAT CHANGE TODAY. 847 00:42:53,689 --> 00:42:57,689 ALL RIGHT, SO TODAY IS THE DAY AFTER A FEW MONTHS 848 00:42:57,689 --> 00:42:59,896 YOU FINALLY DECIDE YOU'RE GONNA MAKE THE CHANGES. 849 00:42:59,896 --> 00:43:01,758 YES, SIR. 850 00:43:01,758 --> 00:43:03,413 YOU UNDERSTAND MY STRUGGLE 851 00:43:03,413 --> 00:43:05,827 TO BELIEVE THAT RIGHT NOW, DON'T YOU? 852 00:43:05,827 --> 00:43:07,862 BECAUSE I NEED TO SEE SOME ACTION, 853 00:43:07,862 --> 00:43:10,517 NOT JUST WORDS THAT YOU TELL ME. 854 00:43:10,517 --> 00:43:12,068 OKAY. 855 00:43:12,068 --> 00:43:15,448 AND THE ONLY WAY WE'RE GONNA SEE THAT EVIDENCE IS ON THE SCALE, 856 00:43:15,448 --> 00:43:17,689 AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T DONE THAT. 857 00:43:17,689 --> 00:43:21,103 SO FAR, I'M NOT VERY HAPPY WITH YOU NOT LOSING WEIGHT 858 00:43:21,103 --> 00:43:22,793 AND TELLING ME AFTER THESE FEW MONTHS 859 00:43:22,793 --> 00:43:24,172 YOU'RE GONNA CHANGE NOW, 860 00:43:24,172 --> 00:43:29,517 THAT YOU JUST REALIZED WHAT YOU WERE DOING WRONG, OKAY? 861 00:43:29,517 --> 00:43:31,379 EXACTLY. THAT'S WHAT I SAID. 862 00:43:31,379 --> 00:43:33,896 I WASN'T DOING WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING. 863 00:43:33,896 --> 00:43:35,793 MY PROBLEM WAS NOT SITTING AROUND EATING. 864 00:43:35,793 --> 00:43:37,137 I WORK ALL DAY. 865 00:43:37,137 --> 00:43:39,034 I'M ALWAYS CONSTANTLY GOING AND ACTIVE AND GOING. 866 00:43:39,034 --> 00:43:41,413 SO I DON'T SIT AROUND AND JUST EAT. 867 00:43:41,413 --> 00:43:43,034 IT'S WHAT I EAT WHEN I DO EAT. 868 00:43:43,034 --> 00:43:44,206 THAT'S MY PROBLEM. 869 00:43:44,206 --> 00:43:45,620 AND I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, 870 00:43:45,620 --> 00:43:46,896 BUT I DON'T JUST SIT AROUND AND EAT. 871 00:43:46,896 --> 00:43:48,896 JUST LIKE TODAY, I HAVE NOT EATEN. 872 00:43:48,896 --> 00:43:50,724 I'M WAITING TO EAT SO THAT WHEN I GET THROUGH 873 00:43:50,724 --> 00:43:52,172 WITH THIS CONFERENCE CALL WITH YOU 874 00:43:52,172 --> 00:43:54,275 THAT I CAN SIT DOWN AND GO AND FIX SOMETHING TO EAT. 875 00:43:54,275 --> 00:43:56,241 I HAVE NOT ATE TODAY, 876 00:43:56,241 --> 00:43:58,172 AND THAT MAY BE HARD FOR SOME PEOPLE TO BELIEVE, 877 00:43:58,172 --> 00:44:00,793 BUT NOT ALL FAT PEOPLE SIT AROUND AND EAT. 878 00:44:00,793 --> 00:44:05,034 LEN, WE TAKE PEOPLE IN THE HOSPITAL, 879 00:44:05,034 --> 00:44:08,896 WE PUT THEM FOR THREE DAYS WITH NO FOOD, OKAY? 880 00:44:08,896 --> 00:44:10,379 AND AFTER THREE DAYS 881 00:44:10,379 --> 00:44:14,000 WE DETOXIFY THEM FROM TOXIC FOOD FOR THREE DAYS. 882 00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:16,724 THEN WE START THEM ON LIQUID DIET FOR A WEEK 883 00:44:16,724 --> 00:44:19,896 BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH IS STORED UP IN THE BODY 884 00:44:19,896 --> 00:44:21,896 TO WHERE THEY DON'T NEED FOOD FOR A LONG TIME. 885 00:44:21,896 --> 00:44:25,172 SO IF YOU DON'T EAT FOR A DAY OR SKIP A LOT OF MEALS, 886 00:44:25,172 --> 00:44:27,275 AT YOUR WEIGHT YOU'RE GONNA BE FINE. 887 00:44:27,275 --> 00:44:29,241 SO YOU'RE OVEREATING, 888 00:44:29,241 --> 00:44:31,689 YOU COMPARE LIKE YOU'RE GONNA EAT TODAY. 889 00:44:31,689 --> 00:44:33,379 NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU 890 00:44:33,379 --> 00:44:35,068 IF YOU DON'T EAT FOR A WHILE 891 00:44:35,068 --> 00:44:36,793 AND YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE MALNOURISHED 892 00:44:36,793 --> 00:44:38,758 OR STARVE LIKE YOU SAYING, OKAY? 893 00:44:38,758 --> 00:44:40,103 YEAH, RIGHT. 894 00:44:40,103 --> 00:44:42,137 IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT, THEN HOW DO YOU THINK 895 00:44:42,137 --> 00:44:45,827 THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS GONNA MAKE YOU LOSE WEIGHT? 896 00:44:45,827 --> 00:44:49,068 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, TO ME, IS A MECHANISM. 897 00:44:49,068 --> 00:44:50,862 I'M NOT SAYING IT'S A MAGIC PILL 898 00:44:50,862 --> 00:44:52,137 OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. 899 00:44:52,137 --> 00:44:54,000 IF IT'S TO THE POINT WHERE IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE 900 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,275 THAT IT'LL HELP, THEN THAT'S FINE. 901 00:44:55,275 --> 00:44:57,000 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 902 00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:58,965 BUT IT DOESN'T TAKE ALL THE BEATING DOWN 903 00:44:58,965 --> 00:45:01,689 AND THE CONSTANT ASKING THE SAME QUESTIONS OVER AND OVER AGAIN. 904 00:45:01,689 --> 00:45:02,862 I GET WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 905 00:45:02,862 --> 00:45:04,448 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING. 906 00:45:04,448 --> 00:45:07,137 BUT IT'S TIME TO MOVE FORWARD FROM THAT. 907 00:45:07,137 --> 00:45:08,275 I TOLD YOU WHAT I WAS GONNA DO. 908 00:45:08,275 --> 00:45:10,310 WE'RE GONNA DO IT OR NOT. 909 00:45:10,310 --> 00:45:12,689 SO IF YOU THINK WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS GONNA HELP, 910 00:45:12,689 --> 00:45:14,172 THEN WE'LL MOVE FORWARD WITH IT. 911 00:45:14,172 --> 00:45:16,034 IF YOU DON'T THINK IT'S GONNA HELP, THEN FINE, 912 00:45:16,034 --> 00:45:17,689 BUT I'M ON THIS JOURNEY TO LOSE WEIGHT. 913 00:45:17,689 --> 00:45:19,413 I'M NOT ON THIS JOURNEY TO KEEP GETTING BADGERED 914 00:45:19,413 --> 00:45:21,448 AND PUSHED DOWN 915 00:45:21,448 --> 00:45:23,172 BECAUSE YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT I'M GONNA LOSE IT. 916 00:45:23,172 --> 00:45:24,482 ALL I CAN DO IS SHOW YOU WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 917 00:45:24,482 --> 00:45:25,724 THAT'S IT. 918 00:45:25,724 --> 00:45:27,586 I'M NOT FOR ALL THE, 919 00:45:27,586 --> 00:45:29,586 "YOU CAN'T EAT FOR FOUR MORE YEARS," AND ALL THAT. 920 00:45:29,586 --> 00:45:31,379 I'M NOT FOR THAT. IT'S NOT A JOKE TO ME. 921 00:45:31,379 --> 00:45:33,896 THIS JOURNEY IS NOT FUNNY TO ME. I'M NOT LAUGHING ABOUT IT. 922 00:45:33,896 --> 00:45:36,965 I UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID TO GET TO MY SIZE, 923 00:45:36,965 --> 00:45:40,482 AND I'M TRYING TO WORK ON THAT AND I DON'T TAKE IT LIGHTLY 924 00:45:40,482 --> 00:45:42,689 AND THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING TO GET THE HELP. 925 00:45:42,689 --> 00:45:45,689 I DON'T TAKE WHAT THIS JOURNEY IS LIGHTLY 926 00:45:45,689 --> 00:45:48,172 AND I DON'T TAKE WHAT I'M DOING LIGHTLY, 927 00:45:48,172 --> 00:45:49,275 BUT I'M TIRED OF IT. 928 00:45:49,275 --> 00:45:50,620 I'M READY TO MOVE PAST 929 00:45:50,620 --> 00:45:52,758 ALL THE "DON'T EAT FOR FOUR YEARS" CRAP. 930 00:45:52,758 --> 00:45:55,310 I'M TIRED OF IT. IT'S TIME TO MOVE FORWARD FOR ME. 931 00:45:55,310 --> 00:45:57,379 ALL I CAN DO IS SHOW YOU WHAT I CAN DO. 932 00:45:57,379 --> 00:45:59,896 AND FROM THIS POINT FORWARD, THAT'S ALL I CAN DO. 933 00:45:59,896 --> 00:46:01,827 IT IS WHAT IT IS. 934 00:46:01,827 --> 00:46:05,275 OH, DON'T YOU THINK THAT YOUR PERCEPTION IS HOLDING YOU UP 935 00:46:05,275 --> 00:46:07,000 TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON? 936 00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:09,068 THAT'S RIGHT. AND THAT'S WHAT I TOLD YOU EARLIER. 937 00:46:09,068 --> 00:46:11,000 I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT IS THAT I WAS DOING NOW. 938 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:12,931 IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT, THEN THAT'S FINE. 939 00:46:12,931 --> 00:46:15,103 NOT EVERYBODY GRASPS THINGS AT THE SAME TIME 940 00:46:15,103 --> 00:46:16,586 THAT EVERYBODY ELSE DOES. 941 00:46:16,586 --> 00:46:18,896 I UNDERSTAND WHAT MY PROBLEM WAS, AND I UNDERSTAND IT. 942 00:46:18,896 --> 00:46:21,310 YES, IT TOOK ME LONGER, BUT NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME 943 00:46:21,310 --> 00:46:24,172 TO SET THAT IN MOTION TO GET WHAT I NEED TO GET. 944 00:46:24,172 --> 00:46:25,551 IF YOU BELIEVE IT, YOU BELIEVE IT, 945 00:46:25,551 --> 00:46:27,793 IF YOU DON'T, YOU DON'T, BUT IT'S UP TO ME. 946 00:46:27,793 --> 00:46:30,551 LIKE YOU SAID, IT'S IN ME TO SHOW WHAT IT IS 947 00:46:30,551 --> 00:46:33,655 THAT I'M TRYING TO ACQUIRE, SO WHEN I COME IN 948 00:46:33,655 --> 00:46:35,655 AND I LOSE THE WEIGHT, THEN YOU WILL SEE. 949 00:46:35,655 --> 00:46:37,379 BUT UNTIL THEN I'M DONE WITH 950 00:46:37,379 --> 00:46:39,517 ALL THE "YOU DON'T NEED TO EAT FOR FOUR MORE YEARS." 951 00:46:39,517 --> 00:46:41,896 IT'S NOT FUNNY TO ME, AND IT'S NOT A METAPHOR. 952 00:46:41,896 --> 00:46:43,827 MY HEALTH IS NOT A METAPHOR TO ME. 953 00:46:43,827 --> 00:46:47,655 LEN, YOU'RE OVEREATING. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT. 954 00:46:47,655 --> 00:46:49,034 I UNDERSTAND THAT, BUT I'M TIRED OF HEARING THAT. 955 00:46:49,034 --> 00:46:50,413 YOU JUST KEEP SAYING IT. 956 00:46:50,413 --> 00:46:53,034 BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE TO EAT AGAIN. 957 00:46:53,034 --> 00:46:55,965 RIGHT. I UNDERSTAND THAT. I SAID I UNDERSTOOD THAT. 958 00:46:55,965 --> 00:46:59,137 NOW IT'S TIME TO MOVE FORWARD PAST THAT. 959 00:46:59,137 --> 00:47:01,344 SO, WHAT ARE YOU GETTING UPSET ABOUT? 960 00:47:01,344 --> 00:47:03,103 FROM THIS POINT FORWARD, THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING, 961 00:47:03,103 --> 00:47:04,724 SETTING MY FOOT IN MOTION TO DO THE JOURNEY 962 00:47:04,724 --> 00:47:06,068 LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE, 963 00:47:06,068 --> 00:47:08,206 TO DO THE WEIGHT LOSS LIKE IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE. 964 00:47:08,206 --> 00:47:10,931 IT IS WHAT IT IS. THAT'S ALL IT IS TO IT. 965 00:47:10,931 --> 00:47:13,551 WE'RE TRYING TO EDUCATE YOU TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE PROBLEM IS, 966 00:47:13,551 --> 00:47:15,689 WHAT THE SOLUTION IS, AND YOU'RE GETTING DEFENSIVE -- 967 00:47:15,689 --> 00:47:16,827 I KNOW WHAT THE PROBLEM IS. 968 00:47:16,827 --> 00:47:18,275 THE PROBLEM WAS ME OVEREATING, 969 00:47:18,275 --> 00:47:20,172 AND THE PROBLEM WAS ME NOT BEING DEDICATED 970 00:47:20,172 --> 00:47:22,275 TO WHAT IT WAS THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BEEN DOING. 971 00:47:22,275 --> 00:47:24,517 THE SOLUTION WAS TO CHANGE MY EATING HABITS 972 00:47:24,517 --> 00:47:25,896 AND TO CHANGE MY MINDSET 973 00:47:25,896 --> 00:47:28,724 AND MY MIND FRAME TO LET MYSELF KNOW THAT I CAN DO IT. 974 00:47:28,724 --> 00:47:31,724 THAT'S THE SOLUTION, AND THAT WAS THE PROBLEM. 975 00:47:31,724 --> 00:47:36,482 LEN, IF YOU THINK YOU'VE FIGURED OUT THE SOLUTION, 976 00:47:36,482 --> 00:47:38,586 THEN WHY ARE YOU ARE TALKING TO ME? 977 00:47:38,586 --> 00:47:40,448 IF YOU ALREADY -- THAT'S WHY I CAME TO YOU. 978 00:47:40,448 --> 00:47:42,068 YOU HELPED ME FIGURE OUT THE SOLUTION, 979 00:47:42,068 --> 00:47:43,793 AND NOW I'M TRYING TO GET ON THE JOURNEY 980 00:47:43,793 --> 00:47:46,172 SO THAT I CAN DO THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 981 00:47:46,172 --> 00:47:48,655 TO HELP WITH THE SOLUTION. 982 00:47:48,655 --> 00:47:50,827 THAT'S WHY I CAME TO YOU. 983 00:47:50,827 --> 00:47:53,068 BUT MY CONCERN IS THAT YOU ARE NOT UNDERSTANDING 984 00:47:53,068 --> 00:47:54,931 WHAT WE'RE TRYING TO TELL YOU 985 00:47:54,931 --> 00:47:56,724 AND YOU'RE NOT FOLLOWING 986 00:47:56,724 --> 00:47:58,034 WHAT WE'RE TELLING YOU. 987 00:47:58,034 --> 00:48:00,206 YOU JUST KEEP REPEATING 988 00:48:00,206 --> 00:48:03,724 WHAT YOUTHINK THAT IS THE SOLUTION FOR YOU. 989 00:48:03,724 --> 00:48:05,172 OKAY, BUT I'M HEARING WHAT YOU'RE TELLING ME. 990 00:48:05,172 --> 00:48:06,655 YOU KEEP TELLING ME THE SAME THING, 991 00:48:06,655 --> 00:48:09,724 YOU'RE REPEATING TO ME. SO WHAT IS IT THAT I'M MISSING? 992 00:48:09,724 --> 00:48:13,931 WELL, ONE IS THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO FEEL COMPELLED 993 00:48:13,931 --> 00:48:15,793 THAT YOU HAVE TO EAT 994 00:48:15,793 --> 00:48:18,206 BECAUSE NUTRITION AND ALL THAT STUFF. 995 00:48:18,206 --> 00:48:22,034 IF YOU DON'T EAT ONE DAY, IF YOU DON'T EAT TWO DAYS, 996 00:48:22,034 --> 00:48:24,551 IF YOU DON'T EAT THREE DAYS, NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN 997 00:48:24,551 --> 00:48:26,931 BECAUSE THE BODY OF HUMAN 998 00:48:26,931 --> 00:48:31,448 STORES THE CALORIES AND NUTRITION IN THE LIVER 999 00:48:31,448 --> 00:48:35,517 FOR BEING USED FOR SEVERAL DAYS. 1000 00:48:35,517 --> 00:48:36,758 OKAY. 1001 00:48:36,758 --> 00:48:40,344 SO IF WE GET IN THE SITUATION THAT WE HAVE A PATIENT 1002 00:48:40,344 --> 00:48:43,137 THAT GOES COMATOSE OR BROKE THEIR LEG 1003 00:48:43,137 --> 00:48:46,310 WILL PUT THEM IN THE HOSPITAL FOR ONE WEEK, 1004 00:48:46,310 --> 00:48:50,517 YOU STILL GOT A STORAGE IN YOUR LIVER TO SUPPLY THAT, OKAY? 1005 00:48:50,517 --> 00:48:54,310 SO DON'T FEEL COMPELLED TO EAT FREQUENTLY. 1006 00:48:54,310 --> 00:48:58,379 SO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO KEEP NUTRITION 1007 00:48:58,379 --> 00:49:02,379 AND EAT MORE OFTEN, EAT AT LEAST ONE OR TWICE A DAY. 1008 00:49:02,379 --> 00:49:03,379 NO, YOU DON'T. 1009 00:49:03,379 --> 00:49:05,551 IF YOU'RE NOT HUNGRY, DON'T EAT, 1010 00:49:05,551 --> 00:49:09,206 BECAUSE YOU GOT ENOUGH ENERGY STORE IN YOUR LIVER 1011 00:49:09,206 --> 00:49:10,655 THAT IS GONNA SUPPLY THAT. 1012 00:49:10,655 --> 00:49:13,413 SO THIS IS WHAT WE WERE TRYING TO TELL YOU 1013 00:49:13,413 --> 00:49:15,620 BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE NUTRITION IS, 1014 00:49:15,620 --> 00:49:19,344 IF YOU DON'T EAT, SOMETHING BAD IS GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU. 1015 00:49:19,344 --> 00:49:21,310 OKAY? YES, SIR. 1016 00:49:21,310 --> 00:49:25,724 SO ALL YOU NEED, MAKE SURE THAT YOU DRINK PLENTY OF LIQUID, 1017 00:49:25,724 --> 00:49:28,275 MAKE SURE YOU TAKE YOUR VITAMINS, 1018 00:49:28,275 --> 00:49:31,068 AND ANYTHING YOU EAT MAKE SURE IS A PROTEIN, 1019 00:49:31,068 --> 00:49:33,344 AND THAT -- THIS THE KEY ISSUE. 1020 00:49:33,344 --> 00:49:37,241 BUT I THINK YOUR PERCEPTION IS GETTING YOU IN TROUBLE 1021 00:49:37,241 --> 00:49:41,172 BECAUSE, IF YOU OVEREAT, THE ENERGY FROM THE FOOD 1022 00:49:41,172 --> 00:49:44,206 IS STORED IN YOUR BODY IN THE FORM OF FAT 1023 00:49:44,206 --> 00:49:48,551 AND THAT'S WHAT YOU NEED TO TAP INTO BY NOT EATING AS MUCH. 1024 00:49:48,551 --> 00:49:51,137 SO YOU CAN TAP IN USING SOME OF THE ENERGY 1025 00:49:51,137 --> 00:49:54,310 THAT YOU STORE IN YOUR BODY IN THE FORM OF FAT 1026 00:49:54,310 --> 00:49:58,137 AND UTILIZE THAT, AND THAT'S THE KEY ISSUES. 1027 00:49:58,137 --> 00:50:01,241 WHAT I'M TELLING YOU -- FOR FOUR YEARS, WHAT I'M SAYING, 1028 00:50:01,241 --> 00:50:03,931 YOU HAVE ENERGY STORE FOR FOUR YEARS 1029 00:50:03,931 --> 00:50:06,103 IN THE FORM OF FAT IN YOUR BODY. 1030 00:50:06,103 --> 00:50:07,241 OKAY. 1031 00:50:07,241 --> 00:50:09,793 YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING? OKAY? 1032 00:50:09,793 --> 00:50:12,206 IT WAS JUST WHEN YOU KEPT SAYING, LIKE, "FOR FOUR YEARS," 1033 00:50:12,206 --> 00:50:14,000 I'M LIKE, "NOW, HOW HE THINK SOMEBODY GONNA GO 1034 00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:15,448 FOR FOUR YEARS WITHOUT EATING? 1035 00:50:15,448 --> 00:50:17,896 YOU KNOW, I WAS LIKE, "THAT AIN'T EVEN POSSIBLE." 1036 00:50:17,896 --> 00:50:21,275 SO I'M THANKFUL FOR YOU EXPLAINING AND BREAKING DOWN, 1037 00:50:21,275 --> 00:50:26,241 LIKE, YOU INTAKE LESS CALORIES THAN YOU PUT IN... 1038 00:50:26,241 --> 00:50:27,689 WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU JUST SAID, 1039 00:50:27,689 --> 00:50:30,034 I CAN'T REPEAT IT BACK LIKE YOU SAID IT. 1040 00:50:30,034 --> 00:50:33,068 AND THEN THAT'S WHERE THE WEIGHT LOSS COMES IN. 1041 00:50:33,068 --> 00:50:36,482 YES, SO YOU NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THIS IDEA 1042 00:50:36,482 --> 00:50:38,482 THAT YOU'RE OBLIGATED TO EAT ALL THE TIME 1043 00:50:38,482 --> 00:50:40,068 OR AT LEAST ONCE OR TWICE A DAY. 1044 00:50:40,068 --> 00:50:41,379 IF YOU GO WITHOUT FOOD, 1045 00:50:41,379 --> 00:50:44,034 NOTHING'S GONNA HAPPEN TO YOU, OKAY? 1046 00:50:44,034 --> 00:50:45,551 OKAY. ALL RIGHT? 1047 00:50:45,551 --> 00:50:48,275 YOU THINK DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT 1048 00:50:48,275 --> 00:50:50,827 AND HOW WE'RE GONNA CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT 1049 00:50:50,827 --> 00:50:54,206 AND LOOK AT THE CALORIE CONTENT THAT YOU'RE TAKING EVERY DAY 1050 00:50:54,206 --> 00:50:57,103 AND KEEP IT DOWN TO 1,200 CALORIE? 1051 00:50:57,103 --> 00:50:58,620 YES, SIR. OKAY. 1052 00:50:58,620 --> 00:51:00,379 SO I WANT YOU TO WORK ON THAT, 1053 00:51:00,379 --> 00:51:02,137 AND I WILL GIVE YOU THE SAME GOAL. 1054 00:51:02,137 --> 00:51:05,034 LOSE 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS FROM NOW. 1055 00:51:05,034 --> 00:51:06,172 YES, SIR. 1056 00:51:06,172 --> 00:51:08,551 SO THIS IS GONNA BE A GOAL FOR YOU. 1057 00:51:08,551 --> 00:51:11,068 AND, YOU KNOW, IT'S BEEN SEVERAL MONTHS 1058 00:51:11,068 --> 00:51:13,965 AND WE HAVEN'T MADE ANY PROGRESS WITH YOU. 1059 00:51:13,965 --> 00:51:16,448 SO WE'LL START THE CLOCK AGAIN. OKAY? 1060 00:51:16,448 --> 00:51:17,551 OKAY. 1061 00:51:17,551 --> 00:51:20,413 ALL RIGHT. ANY OTHER QUESTIONS? 1062 00:51:20,413 --> 00:51:21,413 NO, SIR. THANK YOU. 1063 00:51:21,413 --> 00:51:23,655 GOOD LUCK, AND NICE TO TALK TO YOU. 1064 00:51:23,655 --> 00:51:25,896 AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE US A CALL. 1065 00:51:25,896 --> 00:51:26,793 YES, SIR. 1066 00:51:26,793 --> 00:51:28,758 ALL RIGHT. BYE, LEN. 1067 00:51:28,758 --> 00:51:30,172 BYE-BYE. 1068 00:51:34,724 --> 00:51:36,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: HOPEFULLY WITH THIS CONVERSATION 1069 00:51:36,482 --> 00:51:38,620 I GOT THROUGH TO LEN ENOUGH TODAY 1070 00:51:38,620 --> 00:51:42,172 TO WHERE SHE UNDERSTAND HER SITUATION A LITTLE BETTER. 1071 00:51:42,172 --> 00:51:45,103 SO SHE FINALLY STARTS TO MAKE THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS 1072 00:51:45,103 --> 00:51:48,931 INSTEAD OF CONTINUING TO JUSTIFY HER CHOICE TO OVEREAT 1073 00:51:48,931 --> 00:51:51,896 AND THEN GET DEFENSIVE ABOUT THINGS. 1074 00:51:51,896 --> 00:51:55,103 BUT WORDS ARE EASY, ACTION IS HARD, 1075 00:51:55,103 --> 00:51:57,206 SO IT WILL COME DOWN TO THE PROGRESS 1076 00:51:57,206 --> 00:52:00,172 SHE MAKES WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS WHEN SHE COMES BACK, 1077 00:52:00,172 --> 00:52:03,275 BECAUSE AS MUCH AS SHE SAYS SHE WANTS TO LOSE WEIGHT 1078 00:52:03,275 --> 00:52:04,827 AND DO WHAT SHE NEEDS, 1079 00:52:04,827 --> 00:52:06,827 FOLLOWING THROUGH WITH WHAT SHE DOES NOW 1080 00:52:06,827 --> 00:52:08,172 IS WHAT'S IMPORTANT 1081 00:52:08,172 --> 00:52:11,000 AND WHAT DETERMINES WHERE SHE GOES FROM HERE. 1082 00:52:17,068 --> 00:52:18,551 Leneatha: I KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT 1083 00:52:18,551 --> 00:52:20,827 THAT I NEED TO WORK TO DO BETTER, 1084 00:52:20,827 --> 00:52:22,068 BUT IT'S JUST HARD TO HEAR 1085 00:52:22,068 --> 00:52:24,137 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD, 1086 00:52:24,137 --> 00:52:26,862 AND I'VE ALSO BEEN FACING SOME DIFFICULT CIRCUMSTANCES 1087 00:52:26,862 --> 00:52:28,965 THAT ARE OUT OF MY CONTROL. 1088 00:52:28,965 --> 00:52:30,965 BUT I DID GAIN ANOTHER CHANCE TO QUALIFY 1089 00:52:30,965 --> 00:52:34,103 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WHEN I GO BACK IN TWO MONTHS, 1090 00:52:34,103 --> 00:52:36,827 AND I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO MAKE THAT GOAL 1091 00:52:36,827 --> 00:52:39,620 BECAUSE I KNOW I NEED THIS SURGERY. 1092 00:52:54,758 --> 00:52:57,310 Leneatha: IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE MY CALL WITH DR. NOW, 1093 00:52:57,310 --> 00:52:59,758 AND I'VE BEEN RELYING MORE ON THE SUPPORT OF MY FRIENDS 1094 00:52:59,758 --> 00:53:01,827 AND FAMILY TO GET ME THROUGH. 1095 00:53:01,827 --> 00:53:04,068 AND NOW, TODAY, FRANK IS STEPPING UP 1096 00:53:04,068 --> 00:53:07,517 AND MAKING GOOD ON HIS PROMISE TO WORK ME OUT AT HIS GYM. 1097 00:53:07,517 --> 00:53:09,206 HOW YOU BEEN?GOOD. 1098 00:53:09,206 --> 00:53:10,586 YOU READY?YEP. 1099 00:53:10,586 --> 00:53:11,724 STOP RIGHT THERE. 1100 00:53:11,724 --> 00:53:13,448 ALL RIGHT, DO FIVE JUMPING JACKS. LET'S GO. 1101 00:53:13,448 --> 00:53:15,586 ONE... 1102 00:53:15,586 --> 00:53:17,827 Leneatha: HE'S BEEN TALKING ABOUT HAVING ME IN HERE FOR A WHILE, 1103 00:53:17,827 --> 00:53:20,172 AND TODAY IT'S FINALLY HAPPENING. 1104 00:53:20,172 --> 00:53:22,862 SO, IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO BE CHECKING SOMETHING OFF THE LIST 1105 00:53:22,862 --> 00:53:26,689 THAT WE'VE BEEN SAYING WE WERE GONNA DO FOR A LONG TIME. 1106 00:53:26,689 --> 00:53:29,758 BUT STILL, IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE WORKED OUT MY BODY, 1107 00:53:29,758 --> 00:53:32,379 AND I'M NOT SURE HOW IT'S GONNA GO. 1108 00:53:32,379 --> 00:53:34,793 LATELY I'VE BEEN FEELING MY STAMINA GET A LITTLE BETTER, 1109 00:53:34,793 --> 00:53:36,758 SO I'M TESTING THAT OUT TODAY 1110 00:53:36,758 --> 00:53:38,344 AND WE'RE GONNA SEE HOW MUCH I CAN DO 1111 00:53:38,344 --> 00:53:39,965 AND JUST TAKE IT FROM THERE. 1112 00:53:39,965 --> 00:53:41,862 AND IF I CAN DO GOOD TODAY 1113 00:53:41,862 --> 00:53:44,758 THEN I CAN BUILD ON THAT BY COMING BACK AGAIN SOON 1114 00:53:44,758 --> 00:53:46,931 BECAUSE I REALLY THINK I NEED SOMETHING LIKE THIS 1115 00:53:46,931 --> 00:53:49,724 TO TAKE MY JOURNEY TO THE NEXT LEVEL. 1116 00:53:49,724 --> 00:53:51,137 I'VE BEEN THINKING THAT IT WAS GONNA BE 1117 00:53:51,137 --> 00:53:52,724 THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1118 00:53:52,724 --> 00:53:55,793 BUT IT TURNS OUT IT'S A JOURNEY JUST TO GET TO THAT PART. 1119 00:53:57,931 --> 00:53:59,689 ALL RIGHT, JUST GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT. 1120 00:53:59,689 --> 00:54:01,034 YOU READY? LET'S GET IT. 1121 00:54:01,034 --> 00:54:02,620 GO. COME ON. 1122 00:54:02,620 --> 00:54:05,827 MY LAST WEIGHT LOSS ON THE WORK SCALE WAS SEVEN POUNDS, 1123 00:54:05,827 --> 00:54:08,241 SO THAT'S BETTER, BUT IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH. 1124 00:54:08,241 --> 00:54:09,827 SO THAT'S WHERE FRANK COMES IN, 1125 00:54:09,827 --> 00:54:12,862 AND I THINK THIS IS REALLY GOING TO HELP HAVING HIM WORK ME OUT 1126 00:54:12,862 --> 00:54:15,103 IN A SAFE AND COMFORTABLE ENVIRONMENT 1127 00:54:15,103 --> 00:54:18,655 WHERE I CAN PUSH MYSELF A LITTLE WITHOUT BEING SCARED. 1128 00:54:18,655 --> 00:54:19,862 THREE, TWO... 1129 00:54:19,862 --> 00:54:21,965 COME ON, ONE MORE, ONE MORE. AND RELAX. 1130 00:54:21,965 --> 00:54:24,517 THAT GETS YOU OUT OF BREATH. 1131 00:54:24,517 --> 00:54:25,793 THAT'S THE POINT. 1132 00:54:25,793 --> 00:54:27,827 THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF IT, TO GET YOU OUT OF BREATH. 1133 00:54:27,827 --> 00:54:30,344 ALL RIGHT, THIS ONE, ALTERNATE. 1134 00:54:30,344 --> 00:54:31,379 LET'S GET IT. 1135 00:54:31,379 --> 00:54:33,241 20, 19... 1136 00:54:33,241 --> 00:54:35,448 AND I'M REAL HOPEFUL THAT THIS 1137 00:54:35,448 --> 00:54:38,000 PLUS ALL THE CUTTING BACK THAT I'VE BEEN DOING 1138 00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:39,965 IS GONNA BE THE CHANGE THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR, 1139 00:54:39,965 --> 00:54:42,586 AND THAT I'VE BEEN NEEDING FOR SO LONG NOW. 1140 00:54:42,586 --> 00:54:44,482 THROW THEM DOWN. 1141 00:54:44,482 --> 00:54:45,689 WHEW! 1142 00:54:45,689 --> 00:54:47,206 WHAT I EXPECT OUT OF MY TRAINING SESSION TODAY 1143 00:54:47,206 --> 00:54:49,344 WITH FRANK IS A BRUTAL WORKOUT. 1144 00:54:49,344 --> 00:54:50,827 HE DOES NOT CARE IF YOU'RE TIRED. 1145 00:54:50,827 --> 00:54:53,206 HE DOES NOT CARE IF YOU SAY YOU CANNOT BREATHE. 1146 00:54:53,206 --> 00:54:56,000 HE DOES NOT CARE IF YOU SAY THAT YOU'RE ABOUT TO PUKE. 1147 00:54:56,000 --> 00:54:58,517 HE SAID, "PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY." 1148 00:54:58,517 --> 00:55:00,344 HE SAYS, "IF YOU CAN TELL ME THAT YOU CAN'T BREATHE, 1149 00:55:00,344 --> 00:55:01,862 YOU'RE BREATHING." 1150 00:55:01,862 --> 00:55:03,689 MY STAMINA IS A LITTLE BIT BETTER 1151 00:55:03,689 --> 00:55:05,344 THAN WHAT IT WAS WHEN I FIRST STARTED 1152 00:55:05,344 --> 00:55:07,448 BECAUSE I COULDN'T EVEN MAKE IT LIKE ONE OR TWO MINUTES, 1153 00:55:07,448 --> 00:55:09,413 REALLY, STANDING TO DO ANYTHING. 1154 00:55:09,413 --> 00:55:11,931 THAT'S MY INDICATION THAT I'M GETTING BETTER DAY BY DAY. 1155 00:55:11,931 --> 00:55:14,586 ALL YOUR FRUSTRATION, ALL YOUR ANGER 1156 00:55:14,586 --> 00:55:17,482 AND YOU CAN TAKE IT OUT ON THIS TIRE. 1157 00:55:17,482 --> 00:55:19,137 GOT IT? 1158 00:55:19,137 --> 00:55:20,448 OKAY. 1159 00:55:20,448 --> 00:55:21,482 LET'S GO. 1160 00:55:21,482 --> 00:55:23,103 A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO, 1161 00:55:23,103 --> 00:55:25,034 THERE'S NO WAY I COULD'VE DONE THIS STUFF. 1162 00:55:25,034 --> 00:55:27,448 SO I'M WIPED OUT AND I'M IN PAIN NOW, 1163 00:55:27,448 --> 00:55:29,068 BUT IT'S A GOOD PAIN. 1164 00:55:29,068 --> 00:55:31,172 I THINK I FORGOT THERE WAS A GOOD KIND OF PAIN 1165 00:55:31,172 --> 00:55:33,517 THAT YOU CAN GET FROM WORKING OUT. 1166 00:55:33,517 --> 00:55:35,413 SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF 1167 00:55:35,413 --> 00:55:37,103 BECAUSE THERE'S BEEN A LOT OF STUFF 1168 00:55:37,103 --> 00:55:40,862 TRYING TO SLOW ME DOWN LATELY AND PUSH BACK ON ME. 1169 00:55:40,862 --> 00:55:42,724 LAST ONE, LAST ONE. ALL YOU GOT. 1170 00:55:42,724 --> 00:55:44,620 GOOD JOB, GOOD JOB. COME ON BACK IN. 1171 00:55:44,620 --> 00:55:47,413 SO NEXT TIME WHEN I GO BACK TO SEE DR. NOW IN A MONTH, 1172 00:55:47,413 --> 00:55:49,379 I'M REALLY HOPING TO GET MY WEIGHT DOWN AROUND 1173 00:55:49,379 --> 00:55:51,034 WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE 1174 00:55:51,034 --> 00:55:53,137 BECAUSE I'M CERTAIN THAT DR. NOW WILL BE DONE WITH ME 1175 00:55:53,137 --> 00:55:56,241 IF I DON'T MAKE IT THIS TIME, AND I CAN'T HAVE THAT HAPPEN 1176 00:55:56,241 --> 00:55:58,275 BECAUSE THEN I WON'T HAVE NO MORE HOPE. 1177 00:56:03,586 --> 00:56:05,827 ALL RIGHT. WHAT'S YOUR PLAN ON EATING TODAY? 1178 00:56:05,827 --> 00:56:07,724 I'M GOING TO THE SANDWICH SHOP 1179 00:56:07,724 --> 00:56:10,793 BECAUSE YOU CAN TURN THE SANDWICH INTO A SALAD. 1180 00:56:10,793 --> 00:56:13,172 AND INSTEAD OF IT BEING LIKE 500 AND SOME CALORIES, 1181 00:56:13,172 --> 00:56:18,068 IT'S LIKE 270 CALORIES BECAUSE I DON'T EAT THE SALAD DRESSING, 1182 00:56:18,068 --> 00:56:20,172 SO I JUST GET THE CHEESE AND MEAT AND THE LETTUCE. 1183 00:56:20,172 --> 00:56:21,896 THEN, FOR SUPPER, I TOOK OUT SOME TILAPIA 1184 00:56:21,896 --> 00:56:23,931 THAT I'M GONNA BAKE AND SOME BROCCOLI. 1185 00:56:23,931 --> 00:56:25,241 REMEMBER, WHATEVER YOU EAT, 1186 00:56:25,241 --> 00:56:26,620 WRITE IT DOWN AND BRING IT TO ME. 1187 00:56:26,620 --> 00:56:28,068 OKAY. 1188 00:56:28,068 --> 00:56:29,724 I'M TIRED. I DON'T FEEL LIKE GETTING UP RIGHT NOW. 1189 00:56:29,724 --> 00:56:32,068 OH, WE CAN WORK OUT AGAIN.THAT'S OKAY. BYE. 1190 00:56:32,068 --> 00:56:34,275 WHEW! I CAN'T FEEL MY BUTT. 1191 00:56:34,275 --> 00:56:36,793 I'M NOT A QUITTER. I'M A FIGHTER. 1192 00:56:36,793 --> 00:56:39,448 AND THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF THAT TODAY, 1193 00:56:39,448 --> 00:56:40,689 THAT I CAN TAKE WHAT COMES AT ME 1194 00:56:40,689 --> 00:56:42,448 AND GET THROUGH IT FOR ME AND MY DAUGHTER. 1195 00:56:42,448 --> 00:56:44,965 AND A LITTLE HELP FROM YOUR FRIENDS NEVER HURT. 1196 00:56:53,931 --> 00:56:56,172 I'M BACK IN HOUSTON FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT 1197 00:56:56,172 --> 00:56:58,551 WITH DR. NOW, AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS TO SEE 1198 00:56:58,551 --> 00:57:01,655 IF THE WEIGHT LOSS I DID WAS GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM. 1199 00:57:01,655 --> 00:57:04,482 AND I'M GRATEFUL TODAY I GOT MY SISTER KIMBERLY WITH ME 1200 00:57:04,482 --> 00:57:06,551 TO LEND HER SUPPORT. 1201 00:57:06,551 --> 00:57:09,655 BUT I'M KIND OF NERVOUS BECAUSE IT MATTERS A LOT 1202 00:57:09,655 --> 00:57:11,206 WHAT THAT SCALE SAYS. 1203 00:57:11,206 --> 00:57:13,310 AND IF THE RESULTS TODAY AREN'T GOOD, 1204 00:57:13,310 --> 00:57:17,172 I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH PATIENCE DR. NOW WILL HAVE LEFT WITH ME. 1205 00:57:17,172 --> 00:57:20,137 BUT I KNOW HOW MUCH WORK I PUT INTO IT THIS TIME, 1206 00:57:20,137 --> 00:57:21,517 AND IT'S STARTING TO FEEL LIKE 1207 00:57:21,517 --> 00:57:24,758 I'M RUNNING OUT OF MORE THINGS I CAN DO TO DO BETTER. 1208 00:57:26,413 --> 00:57:27,724 LEN? 1209 00:57:29,068 --> 00:57:32,034 Leneatha: I KNOW I LOST WEIGHT, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH 1210 00:57:32,034 --> 00:57:34,034 BECAUSE THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED MYSELF AT WORK 1211 00:57:34,034 --> 00:57:36,000 I STILL HAD A WAYS TO GO. 1212 00:57:36,000 --> 00:57:37,448 BUT I'VE BEEN WORKING HARDER THAN EVER, 1213 00:57:37,448 --> 00:57:40,689 AND I'M FEELING LIGHTER AND BETTER AND MORE FOCUSED. 1214 00:57:40,689 --> 00:57:43,758 AND I'M JUST HOPING THE SCALE TELLS ME SOMETHING GOOD 1215 00:57:43,758 --> 00:57:45,379 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT 1216 00:57:45,379 --> 00:57:47,724 WITH ALL KINDS OF STRUGGLES FACING ME, 1217 00:57:47,724 --> 00:57:50,655 AND IT'S ABOUT TIME I HAD SOME GOOD NEWS. 1218 00:58:01,448 --> 00:58:05,551 Leneatha: I'M AT DR. NOW'S ABOUT TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT, 1219 00:58:05,551 --> 00:58:07,758 AND I'VE BEEN WORKING HARDER THAN EVER TO GET 1220 00:58:07,758 --> 00:58:09,517 THE FULL 60 POUNDS OFF 1221 00:58:09,517 --> 00:58:14,034 DOWN TO TODAY'S WEIGHT I GOT TO BE AT OF 544. 1222 00:58:15,413 --> 00:58:16,482 Woman: 575. 1223 00:58:24,551 --> 00:58:26,896 I SHOULD HAVE LOST MORE. 1224 00:58:26,896 --> 00:58:28,517 BUT, YOU KNOW, IT'S STILL A GOOD LOSS 1225 00:58:28,517 --> 00:58:30,620 AND THERE MIGHT EVEN BE A CHANCE THAT DR. NOW 1226 00:58:30,620 --> 00:58:32,793 WILL BE HAPPY WITH THAT, 1227 00:58:32,793 --> 00:58:36,137 BECAUSE IT'S A MUCH BIGGER LOSS THAN I'VE HAD FOR HIM BEFORE. 1228 00:58:36,137 --> 00:58:38,689 SO HE MIGHT DECIDE THAT I'M READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1229 00:58:38,689 --> 00:58:40,310 TODAY AFTER ALL. 1230 00:58:44,620 --> 00:58:45,620 HELLO. 1231 00:58:45,620 --> 00:58:46,689 HELLO. HELLO. 1232 00:58:46,689 --> 00:58:47,586 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 1233 00:58:47,586 --> 00:58:49,448 FINE.GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1234 00:58:49,448 --> 00:58:51,517 I'M GOOD, THANK YOU. 1235 00:58:51,517 --> 00:58:55,655 ALL RIGHT, LEN, SO TODAY YOU'RE DOWN TO 575? 1236 00:58:55,655 --> 00:58:56,931 YES, SIR. 1237 00:58:56,931 --> 00:59:01,034 SO YOU LOST 29 POUNDS, ULTIMATELY, OVER FIVE MONTHS? 1238 00:59:01,034 --> 00:59:04,310 BUT EVEN JUST FOR TWO MONTHS, IT'S NOT THAT GREAT. 1239 00:59:04,310 --> 00:59:06,241 SO YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING. 1240 00:59:06,241 --> 00:59:07,689 YEAH, I DON'T SEE HOW I'M OVEREATING 1241 00:59:07,689 --> 00:59:12,103 BECAUSE ALL I'VE HAD WAS SALAD, MEAT, AND THAT'S IT. 1242 00:59:12,103 --> 00:59:16,275 YOU ARE GOING TO KEEP REPEATING THAT 1243 00:59:16,275 --> 00:59:18,551 AND YOU'RE GOING TO BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU SAID? 1244 00:59:18,551 --> 00:59:21,517 -YES. -ALL RIGHT, LET ME MAKE IT VERY CLEAR FOR YOU, OKAY? 1245 00:59:21,517 --> 00:59:25,034 SO, RIGHT NOW, NO MATTER HOW LITTLE YOU'RE EATING, 1246 00:59:25,034 --> 00:59:26,137 IT'S STILL TOO MUCH. 1247 00:59:26,137 --> 00:59:27,724 OKAY.YOU FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 1248 00:59:27,724 --> 00:59:29,206 OKAY. OKAY. 1249 00:59:29,206 --> 00:59:33,172 SO, RIGHT NOW, TO THE STANDARD THAT YOU WERE EATING BEFORE, 1250 00:59:33,172 --> 00:59:36,586 YOU'RE EATING LESS, AND YOU'RE HAPPY WITH THAT. 1251 00:59:36,586 --> 00:59:41,068 BUT THE BAD NEWS IS, IT'S STILL TOO MUCH. 1252 00:59:41,068 --> 00:59:42,551 YOU FOLLOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 1253 00:59:42,551 --> 00:59:44,965 I REALLY DON'T. I DON'T. 'CAUSE I'M NOT EATING. 1254 00:59:44,965 --> 00:59:46,896 THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING. I DON'T KNOW. 1255 00:59:46,896 --> 00:59:48,344 AND I'M NOT GONNA CHANGE WHAT I'M SAYING, 1256 00:59:48,344 --> 00:59:49,931 BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING. 1257 00:59:49,931 --> 00:59:51,275 OKAY. OKAY. 1258 00:59:51,275 --> 00:59:53,068 I'M NOT. 1259 00:59:53,068 --> 00:59:54,965 AND I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT I'M EATING, 1260 00:59:54,965 --> 00:59:58,793 AND I'M NOT EATING, AND NOBODY'S SITTING THERE WATCHING IT. 1261 00:59:58,793 --> 00:59:59,931 BECAUSE I'M NOT EATING. 1262 00:59:59,931 --> 01:00:01,689 I MEAN, I KNOW YOU'RE NOT EATING. 1263 01:00:01,689 --> 01:00:03,931 OKAY, BUT PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT I'M EATING, AND I'M NOT. 1264 01:00:03,931 --> 01:00:06,068 CALM DOWN. CALM DOWN. 1265 01:00:06,068 --> 01:00:07,103 IF YOU'RE NOT EATING, 1266 01:00:07,103 --> 01:00:08,413 YOU'RE GONNA LOSE MORE WEIGHT, THOUGH. 1267 01:00:08,413 --> 01:00:10,517 OKAY, WELL, I WISH SOMEBODY COULD BE WITH ME 24/7 1268 01:00:10,517 --> 01:00:11,827 SO THAT THEY CAN SEE. 1269 01:00:11,827 --> 01:00:14,482 I KNOW YOU'RE NOT EATING. 1270 01:00:14,482 --> 01:00:18,068 ALL RIGHT, I WANT TO GET SOME TESTS DONE 1271 01:00:18,068 --> 01:00:19,827 TO UNDERSTAND THAT, OKAY? 1272 01:00:19,827 --> 01:00:21,000 RIGHT. OKAY. 1273 01:00:21,000 --> 01:00:23,931 I WANT YOU TO GO ON A LIQUID DIET FOR THREE DAYS. 1274 01:00:23,931 --> 01:00:25,172 I CAN DO THAT. 1275 01:00:25,172 --> 01:00:27,206 OKAY. NO SUGARY DRINKS. 1276 01:00:27,206 --> 01:00:28,655 I DON'T HAVE SUGARY DRINKS NOW. 1277 01:00:28,655 --> 01:00:32,827 OKAY, YOU CAN HAVE SUGAR-FREE JELL-O, 1278 01:00:32,827 --> 01:00:38,689 AND YOU CAN HAVE BROTH, AND YOU CAN HAVE TEA, COFFEE, 1279 01:00:38,689 --> 01:00:42,862 AND JUST STRAIN THE SOUPS AND HAVE THAT, 1280 01:00:42,862 --> 01:00:46,206 AND SEE IN THREE DAYS HOW MUCH WEIGHT YOU CAN LOSE, OKAY? 1281 01:00:46,206 --> 01:00:49,103 I THINK IT'LL BE BETTER WITH THE LIQUID. 1282 01:00:49,103 --> 01:00:53,275 YOU ARE CONFUSING YOURSELF AND YOU'RE GETTING AND REPEATING 1283 01:00:53,275 --> 01:00:55,620 THE SAME THING YOU'RE SAYING. 1284 01:00:55,620 --> 01:00:57,896 YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, OKAY? 1285 01:00:57,896 --> 01:01:01,103 BECAUSE THERE'S NO MAGIC IN HERE. 1286 01:01:01,103 --> 01:01:03,793 -RIGHT. -THIS IS ALL SCIENCE AND PHYSICS. 1287 01:01:03,793 --> 01:01:06,413 YOU CAN'T GAIN WEIGHT FROM THIN AIR, 1288 01:01:06,413 --> 01:01:09,310 SO IS IT MAD THAT WE USE THE SCALE TO MEASURE? 1289 01:01:09,310 --> 01:01:11,758 AND YOU THINK YOU'RE NOT EATING A LOT, BUT YOU ARE. 1290 01:01:11,758 --> 01:01:14,586 SO IF I PUT YOU IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW 1291 01:01:14,586 --> 01:01:16,310 AND I PUT YOU ON A CONTROLLED DIET, 1292 01:01:16,310 --> 01:01:19,724 YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WEIGHT I CAN GET YOU TO LOSE IN ONE MONTH? 1293 01:01:19,724 --> 01:01:21,862 I CAN GET YOU LOSE A HUNDRED POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 1294 01:01:21,862 --> 01:01:23,482 I'D BE GLAD TO SEE THAT. 1295 01:01:23,482 --> 01:01:25,172 BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? 1296 01:01:25,172 --> 01:01:27,793 YOUR PERCEPTION IS JUST YOU'RE CONCENTRATING 1297 01:01:27,793 --> 01:01:31,103 ON WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING, OKAY? 1298 01:01:31,103 --> 01:01:32,206 YOU'RE STILL EATING TOO MUCH, 1299 01:01:32,206 --> 01:01:35,241 BUT YOU'RE NOT SEEING THAT, OKAY? 1300 01:01:35,241 --> 01:01:39,172 SO, YOU'D BE SURPRISED IF YOU START WRITING 1301 01:01:39,172 --> 01:01:41,137 AND KEEP THE DAIRY OF WHAT YOU'RE EATING. 1302 01:01:41,137 --> 01:01:43,379 AND I DO THAT. I DO KEEP A DIARY OF WHAT I EAT. 1303 01:01:43,379 --> 01:01:46,379 THAT'S WHY I KNOW THAT I'M NOT EATING. THAT'S WHY I KNOW. 1304 01:01:46,379 --> 01:01:50,172 YEAH, YOU ARE EATING, OKAY? YOU ARE EATING. 1305 01:01:50,172 --> 01:01:52,655 YOU'RE NOT EATING COMPARING TO WHAT BEFORE, OKAY? 1306 01:01:52,655 --> 01:01:55,827 AND BEFORE I WASN'T EATING. BEFORE I WAS EATING JUNK. 1307 01:01:55,827 --> 01:01:58,241 I WAS EATING SWEETS AND CAKES AND DRINKS. 1308 01:01:58,241 --> 01:01:59,655 I WASN'T EATING FOOD. 1309 01:01:59,655 --> 01:02:01,586 THAT WAS THE PROBLEM. IT WAS SWEETS. 1310 01:02:01,586 --> 01:02:05,413 YOU'RE EATING TOO MUCH NOW IN COMPARISON, 1311 01:02:05,413 --> 01:02:07,724 GIVES YOU THAT ILLUSION THAT YOU'RE NOT EATING. 1312 01:02:07,724 --> 01:02:09,689 RIGHT.BUT THAT'S NOT REALITY, OKAY? 1313 01:02:09,689 --> 01:02:12,862 SO YOUR WEIGHT IS DICTATED BY THE FOOD YOU EAT 1314 01:02:12,862 --> 01:02:15,655 AND WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU, OKAY? 1315 01:02:15,655 --> 01:02:18,551 BECAUSE THIS IS THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION. 1316 01:02:18,551 --> 01:02:20,551 YOU GOT TO SEE THE REALITY 1317 01:02:20,551 --> 01:02:24,034 AND NOT BE CONFUSED BY WHAT YOUR PERCEPTION IS. 1318 01:02:24,034 --> 01:02:26,931 OKAY? THAT MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU? 1319 01:02:26,931 --> 01:02:31,379 IN A WAY, BUT IT'S JUST -- IT'S HARD TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND IT 1320 01:02:31,379 --> 01:02:33,517 BECAUSE I KNOW THAT WHEN I SIT THERE THAT I'M -- 1321 01:02:33,517 --> 01:02:35,172 BECAUSE WHEN I LOOK AT WHAT I'M EATING, 1322 01:02:35,172 --> 01:02:38,000 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT, AND THAT'S THE THING ABOUT IT. 1323 01:02:38,000 --> 01:02:42,241 THAT IS NOT FOR YOU -- THAT SEEMS NOT VERY MUCH. 1324 01:02:42,241 --> 01:02:43,896 AND IT SEEMS LIKE IT'S HARD 1325 01:02:43,896 --> 01:02:47,000 BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I'VE HEARD SINCE I'VE GAINED THE WEIGHT 1326 01:02:47,000 --> 01:02:49,068 IS PEOPLE JUST BEATING ME DOWN. 1327 01:02:49,068 --> 01:02:51,034 NOBODY SAID IT'S GONNA BE EASY. 1328 01:02:51,034 --> 01:02:53,275 YEAH, BUT THAT'S THE HARD PART, IS PEOPLE LOOK AT YOU 1329 01:02:53,275 --> 01:02:54,724 BECAUSE YOU'RE BIG 1330 01:02:54,724 --> 01:02:57,034 AND THINK THAT YOU'RE JUST SITTING THERE JUST EATING 1331 01:02:57,034 --> 01:02:58,482 AND THAT'S NOT IT WHEN YOU KNOW 1332 01:02:58,482 --> 01:03:00,000 THAT YOU'RE NOT SITTING THERE EATING. 1333 01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:03,034 BECAUSE I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO SIT THERE AND EAT LIKE THAT. 1334 01:03:03,034 --> 01:03:05,551 WELL, THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING HERE. 1335 01:03:05,551 --> 01:03:08,275 BUT I KNEW I HADN'T BEEN EATING, AND I EVEN SAID, 1336 01:03:08,275 --> 01:03:09,793 "LENEATHA, YOU'RE NOT EATING ENOUGH 1337 01:03:09,793 --> 01:03:12,000 AND MAYBE YOUR BODY'S HOLDING ONTO IT 1338 01:03:12,000 --> 01:03:14,034 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT EATING ENOUGH." 1339 01:03:14,034 --> 01:03:16,620 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN EATING ANYTHING. 1340 01:03:16,620 --> 01:03:19,862 IT'S JUST LIKE YESTERDAY, ALL I HAD WHEN WE CAME DOWN HERE 1341 01:03:19,862 --> 01:03:24,034 YESTERDAY WAS AN EGG AND A PIECE OF BACON. 1342 01:03:24,034 --> 01:03:25,413 AND I GOT HERE LAST NIGHT 1343 01:03:25,413 --> 01:03:28,241 AND I GOT TWO PIECES OF GRILLED CHICKEN FROM KFC 1344 01:03:28,241 --> 01:03:32,241 AND A COLESLAW AND TWO WATERS. THAT'S ALL I HAD YESTERDAY. 1345 01:03:32,241 --> 01:03:35,827 SO WHAT I'M SAYING IS, I'M NOT EATING 1346 01:03:35,827 --> 01:03:37,689 AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. 1347 01:03:37,689 --> 01:03:41,482 YOU ARE, OKAY? YOU ATE THE EGG, YOU ATE THE BACON, OKAY? 1348 01:03:41,482 --> 01:03:43,172 I KNOW, BUT I'M NOT SAYING THAT. 1349 01:03:43,172 --> 01:03:45,379 I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT, LIKE, I'M NOT EATING. 1350 01:03:45,379 --> 01:03:48,689 I'M SAYING I'M NOT OVEREATING IS WHAT I'M SAYING, 1351 01:03:48,689 --> 01:03:50,379 AND IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME. 1352 01:03:50,379 --> 01:03:53,724 IF I'M NOT OVEREATING, WHY IS WEIGHT NOT COMING OFF? 1353 01:03:53,724 --> 01:03:55,206 I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT. 1354 01:03:55,206 --> 01:03:56,931 AND THAT'S WHAT MAKES YOU WANT TO GIVE UP, 1355 01:03:56,931 --> 01:03:58,620 BECAUSE WHEN YOU'RE TRYING AND YOU KNOW THAT 1356 01:03:58,620 --> 01:04:01,655 YOU'RE DOING IT RIGHT, IT'S STILL NOT WORKING. 1357 01:04:01,655 --> 01:04:04,655 OKAY, WE ALL THINK WE DON'T EAT VERY MUCH, 1358 01:04:04,655 --> 01:04:10,103 AND, YOU KNOW, WE GET PEOPLE IN A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT 1359 01:04:10,103 --> 01:04:14,275 AND WE GET THEM TO EAT ONE DAY. AT THE END OF THE DAY, 1360 01:04:14,275 --> 01:04:17,206 WE GET THEM TO WRITE DOWN WHAT THEY EAT, 1361 01:04:17,206 --> 01:04:21,931 THEY COULDN'T REMEMBER ABOUT 10% OF WHAT THEY EAT, OKAY? 1362 01:04:21,931 --> 01:04:24,344 SO YOU JUST -- KEEP JUST COUNTING 1363 01:04:24,344 --> 01:04:25,689 WHATEVER YOU'RE EATING -- 1364 01:04:25,689 --> 01:04:30,172 "OH, YEAH. I HAD THAT. I HAD THAT. I HAD THAT. 1365 01:04:30,172 --> 01:04:32,655 OKAY, THAT WASN'T MUCH. THAT WASN'T MUCH." 1366 01:04:32,655 --> 01:04:34,724 SO IT JUST ALL BUILD UP. 1367 01:04:34,724 --> 01:04:39,862 SO YOUR PERCEPTION IS LIMITED BY THE INFORMATION YOU HAVE. 1368 01:04:39,862 --> 01:04:41,482 UNLESS YOU HAVE THE RIGHT INFORMATION, 1369 01:04:41,482 --> 01:04:43,344 YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE THE RIGHT PERCEPTION. 1370 01:04:43,344 --> 01:04:47,379 SO KEEP A FOOD JOURNAL AND TAKE ACCOUNT OF EVERYTHING, 1371 01:04:47,379 --> 01:04:51,551 AND ONE DAY A WEEK, WITH THE SAME CLOTHES, CHECK YOUR WEIGHT. 1372 01:04:51,551 --> 01:04:53,206 IF YOU HAVEN'T LOST 10 POUNDS, 1373 01:04:53,206 --> 01:04:55,068 YOU'RE STILL GETTING TOO MANY CALORIES. 1374 01:04:55,068 --> 01:04:59,241 NO MATTER HOW MANY TIME YOU PUKING OR NOT HAVING AN APPETITE 1375 01:04:59,241 --> 01:05:02,655 OR NOT ABLE TO EAT DOESN'T MATTER. 1376 01:05:02,655 --> 01:05:05,068 WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU, IT MATTERS. OKAY? 1377 01:05:05,068 --> 01:05:08,586 BECAUSE IN FIVE MINUTES YOU CAN CONSUME ENOUGH CALORIES 1378 01:05:08,586 --> 01:05:11,793 THAT WILL BE ENOUGH FOR 24 HOURS, OKAY? 1379 01:05:11,793 --> 01:05:16,068 SO YOU NEED TO SEE THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION, OKAY? 1380 01:05:16,068 --> 01:05:20,965 THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION IS, NO MATTER WHAT YOU'RE EATING, 1381 01:05:20,965 --> 01:05:23,655 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT, OKAY? 1382 01:05:23,655 --> 01:05:25,482 YOU WANT TO GET A TOWEL OVER THERE? 1383 01:05:25,482 --> 01:05:27,172 JUST... 1384 01:05:33,793 --> 01:05:37,137 SO, START WORKING ON THAT 1385 01:05:37,137 --> 01:05:39,551 AND SEE THE REALITY OF THE SITUATION. 1386 01:05:39,551 --> 01:05:42,000 PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU, 1387 01:05:42,000 --> 01:05:43,551 AND ADJUST YOUR EATING HABITS 1388 01:05:43,551 --> 01:05:45,931 ACCORDING TO WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU, 1389 01:05:45,931 --> 01:05:49,068 NOT WHAT YOUR PERCEPTION IS OF OVEREATING. 1390 01:05:49,068 --> 01:05:51,241 AND YOU NEED TO EAT LESS AND LESS 1391 01:05:51,241 --> 01:05:52,689 BECAUSE AFTER SURGERY 1392 01:05:52,689 --> 01:05:54,586 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE THE SAME STRUGGLE 1393 01:05:54,586 --> 01:05:56,241 THAT YOU'RE HAVING NOW, OKAY? 1394 01:05:56,241 --> 01:05:58,275 BECAUSE AFTER SURGERY, ALL THE PEOPLE, 1395 01:05:58,275 --> 01:06:01,482 THEY COME IN AND TELL ME, "I DON'T EAT VERY MUCH, 1396 01:06:01,482 --> 01:06:04,551 BUT I GAINED 10 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH," OKAY? 1397 01:06:04,551 --> 01:06:07,034 SO BASICALLY WHAT YOU'RE BASICALLY SAYING IS, 1398 01:06:07,034 --> 01:06:10,172 JUST BECAUSE YOU SAY 1,200 CALORIES A DAY, 1399 01:06:10,172 --> 01:06:11,482 THAT DOESN'T NECESSARILY MEAN 1400 01:06:11,482 --> 01:06:13,724 THAT THAT'S GOING TO WORK FOR ME. 1401 01:06:13,724 --> 01:06:16,172 I MAY HAVE TO HAVE LESS THAN 1,200 CALORIES? 1402 01:06:16,172 --> 01:06:18,241 YES AND NO. 1403 01:06:18,241 --> 01:06:22,206 I'M SAYING THAT YOU'RE EATING FOUR TO FIVE TIMES THAT AMOUNT, 1404 01:06:22,206 --> 01:06:24,103 AND YOU DON'T REALIZE IT. 1405 01:06:24,103 --> 01:06:27,172 BUT EVEN IF YOU WERE JUST EATING 1,200 CALORIES, 1406 01:06:27,172 --> 01:06:29,689 IF YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT, THEN EAT LESS. 1407 01:06:29,689 --> 01:06:30,827 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 1408 01:06:30,827 --> 01:06:32,758 OKAY. THAT MADE BETTER SENSE. 1409 01:06:32,758 --> 01:06:35,896 BECAUSE IT MADE IT, THAT MADE IT MORE UNDERSTANDABLE 1410 01:06:35,896 --> 01:06:39,275 BECAUSE YOU MADE IT TO WHERE... 1411 01:06:39,275 --> 01:06:42,068 NOT EVERYTHING WORKS FOR EVERYBODY, 1412 01:06:42,068 --> 01:06:44,827 AND I MAY HAVE TO ADJUST THINGS TO MAKE IT FIT 1413 01:06:44,827 --> 01:06:47,413 WHERE MY WEIGHT WILL COME OFF. 1414 01:06:47,413 --> 01:06:49,413 WHATEVER IT TAKES TO LOSE WEIGHT 1415 01:06:49,413 --> 01:06:52,620 AND REDUCE THE STRAIN ON YOUR BODY, YOU NEED TO DO. 1416 01:06:52,620 --> 01:06:56,344 BUT UNFORTUNATELY, THE ONLY WAY WE CAN COMBAT THAT 1417 01:06:56,344 --> 01:06:59,241 IS TO REDUCE THE CALORIE INTAKE, OKAY? 1418 01:06:59,241 --> 01:07:00,172 OKAY. 1419 01:07:00,172 --> 01:07:01,862 AND YOU CAN CHANGE THAT, OKAY? 1420 01:07:01,862 --> 01:07:04,724 SO DON'T ARGUE WITH YOURSELF. 1421 01:07:04,724 --> 01:07:07,344 OKAY? JUST TO ARGUE WITH THE SCALE. 1422 01:07:07,344 --> 01:07:09,517 SO YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO MORE 1423 01:07:09,517 --> 01:07:12,965 AND TRY HARDER AND PAY MORE ATTENTION 1424 01:07:12,965 --> 01:07:15,000 TO WHAT THE SCALE TELLS YOU, OKAY? 1425 01:07:15,000 --> 01:07:18,586 AND DON'T GET UPSET THAT YOU'RE NOT LOSING AS MUCH WEIGHT 1426 01:07:18,586 --> 01:07:19,689 AS YOU WANT TO. 1427 01:07:19,689 --> 01:07:21,310 TRY HARDER. OKAY? 1428 01:07:21,310 --> 01:07:22,551 YES, SIR. 1429 01:07:22,551 --> 01:07:25,000 ALL RIGHT, AND WE'LL GIVE YOU SOME INSTRUCTION 1430 01:07:25,000 --> 01:07:26,620 TO DO A LIQUID DIET FOR A FEW DAYS 1431 01:07:26,620 --> 01:07:29,034 SO YOU CAN SEE HOW MUCH YOU LOSE WITH THAT. 1432 01:07:29,034 --> 01:07:31,103 AND KEEP DOING THE DAILY FOOD JOURNAL 1433 01:07:31,103 --> 01:07:32,827 AND WRITE EVERYTHING YOU EAT DOWN 1434 01:07:32,827 --> 01:07:34,620 SO YOU CAN ADJUST YOUR PERCEPTION 1435 01:07:34,620 --> 01:07:36,172 OF WHAT YOU'RE EATING, OKAY? 1436 01:07:36,172 --> 01:07:37,517 OKAY. 1437 01:07:37,517 --> 01:07:39,551 IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY, BUT YOU CAN DO IT, LEN. 1438 01:07:39,551 --> 01:07:43,034 AND YOU HAVE YOUR TEAM THAT WANT TO SUPPORT TO HELP YOU, RIGHT? 1439 01:07:43,034 --> 01:07:45,344 YEAH, YOU GOT SOME WORK TO DO. 1440 01:07:45,344 --> 01:07:47,034 AND YOU GOT TO STICK TO IT. 1441 01:07:47,034 --> 01:07:49,103 I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE HARD, BUT... 1442 01:07:49,103 --> 01:07:51,206 IT CAN'T BE HARDER THAN IT'S ALREADY BEEN FOR ME, 1443 01:07:51,206 --> 01:07:53,620 WITH HOW YOU SEE ME STRUGGLE MAKING CHANGES. 1444 01:07:53,620 --> 01:07:57,206 WELL, YEAH, THAT'S TRUE, NOW. THAT'S TRUE. THAT'S TRUE. 1445 01:07:57,206 --> 01:08:01,206 BUT IT'S GONNA BE A LOT STRICTER NOW 1446 01:08:01,206 --> 01:08:04,310 AND THE AMOUNT HOW YOU DO, 1447 01:08:04,310 --> 01:08:05,896 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO TWEAK IT UNTIL IT WORKS. 1448 01:08:05,896 --> 01:08:08,000 THAT'S WHY I'M DOING THIS LIQUID DIET. 1449 01:08:08,000 --> 01:08:09,655 YOU HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING NOW 1450 01:08:09,655 --> 01:08:12,172 SO YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO AND WHAT NOT TO DO. 1451 01:08:12,172 --> 01:08:13,586 UH-HUH. YEAH. 1452 01:08:13,586 --> 01:08:16,655 NO EXCUSES. 1453 01:08:16,655 --> 01:08:20,620 ALL RIGHT.HE MADE ME CRY. 1454 01:08:20,620 --> 01:08:22,379 WELL, I MEAN, UM... 1455 01:08:22,379 --> 01:08:23,655 IN A GOOD WAY. 1456 01:08:23,655 --> 01:08:25,068 NO ONE SAID THIS WILL BE EASY, 1457 01:08:25,068 --> 01:08:27,551 SO CRYING WHEN YOU'RE UPSET IS FINE. 1458 01:08:27,551 --> 01:08:30,034 BECAUSE A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT 1459 01:08:30,034 --> 01:08:32,034 DON'T UNDERSTAND THINGS TO START 1460 01:08:32,034 --> 01:08:34,379 AND ALSO STRUGGLE WITH WHAT OTHER PEOPLE 1461 01:08:34,379 --> 01:08:37,103 SAY TO THEM THAT IS MISGUIDED. 1462 01:08:37,103 --> 01:08:39,275 AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT IT REALLY -- 1463 01:08:39,275 --> 01:08:40,965 BECAUSE HE TOLD ME, LIKE WHAT YOU SAID, 1464 01:08:40,965 --> 01:08:43,965 YOU CAN'T WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK. 1465 01:08:43,965 --> 01:08:46,965 AND THAT'S MY HARDEST THING, IS PEOPLE'S PERCEPTION 1466 01:08:46,965 --> 01:08:48,896 OF LOOKING AT PEOPLE WHEN THEY'RE BIG. 1467 01:08:48,896 --> 01:08:50,620 THEY JUST THINK PEOPLE OVEREAT, 1468 01:08:50,620 --> 01:08:52,586 AND THAT'S WHY I HATED GOING TO THE DOCTOR 1469 01:08:52,586 --> 01:08:55,241 AND STUFF ALL THE TIME, BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS SAY, 1470 01:08:55,241 --> 01:08:56,758 "WELL, JUST PUSH BACK FROM THE TABLE," 1471 01:08:56,758 --> 01:08:59,034 INSTEAD OF SITTING DOWN AND TALKING TO THAT PERSON, 1472 01:08:59,034 --> 01:09:00,896 TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT'S GOING ON 1473 01:09:00,896 --> 01:09:03,517 OR, "LET'S GET THIS PLAN GOING," 1474 01:09:03,517 --> 01:09:05,551 OR, "WHAT IS IT?" OR, "WHAT'S WHAT?" 1475 01:09:05,551 --> 01:09:07,344 IT'S JUST, "OH, YOU EAT." 1476 01:09:07,344 --> 01:09:11,689 AND I'M LIKE, STOP LOOKING AT ALL BIG PEOPLE AS ONE BIG -- 1477 01:09:11,689 --> 01:09:15,482 AS A WHOLE, AND IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT THAT. 1478 01:09:15,482 --> 01:09:18,689 ALL RIGHT, IF YOU READ THE BOOK, YOU'LL SEE I ADDRESS THAT, 1479 01:09:18,689 --> 01:09:21,137 THE SITUATION THAT THESE ARE THE PEOPLE 1480 01:09:21,137 --> 01:09:25,965 THAT ARE MOST MISUNDERSTOOD BY THE GENERAL PUBLIC 1481 01:09:25,965 --> 01:09:29,172 AND BY EVEN MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL, 1482 01:09:29,172 --> 01:09:31,068 AND THE PEOPLE NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT. 1483 01:09:31,068 --> 01:09:34,310 AND THAT'S THE ONLY REASON I'M DOING THIS, 1484 01:09:34,310 --> 01:09:39,448 TO MAKE THE PUBLIC AND MEDICAL COMMUNITY TO UNDERSTAND 1485 01:09:39,448 --> 01:09:43,586 PEOPLE STRUGGLING WITH OBESITY THAT ARE IN YOUR SITUATION, 1486 01:09:43,586 --> 01:09:47,586 BUT THE ISSUES LEADING TO THIS IS NOT GONNA GO AWAY. 1487 01:09:47,586 --> 01:09:51,413 BUT NEVERTHELESS, IN ORDER TO HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1488 01:09:51,413 --> 01:09:53,827 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO SHOW ME SOME LEVEL OF EFFORT 1489 01:09:53,827 --> 01:09:55,379 THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO DO THE WORK 1490 01:09:55,379 --> 01:09:57,655 TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG TERM. 1491 01:09:57,655 --> 01:09:58,793 OKAY? 1492 01:09:58,793 --> 01:10:01,724 AND THERE'S NO WAY AROUND IT, 1493 01:10:01,724 --> 01:10:03,034 THAT YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1494 01:10:03,034 --> 01:10:06,551 AND THAT'S GONNA BE THE HARDEST PART TO DO, 1495 01:10:06,551 --> 01:10:09,034 BUT NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO IT. 1496 01:10:09,034 --> 01:10:10,275 RIGHT. OKAY? 1497 01:10:10,275 --> 01:10:12,413 OKAY.AND THAT'S TOTALLY UP TO YOU. 1498 01:10:12,413 --> 01:10:16,379 AND NOBODY SAID IT'S GONNA BE EASY. OKAY? 1499 01:10:16,379 --> 01:10:18,689 WELL, I'M GONNA DO BETTER NEXT TIME, DR. NOW. 1500 01:10:18,689 --> 01:10:21,724 THAT SOUNDS GOOD. ALL RIGHT. 1501 01:10:21,724 --> 01:10:24,103 ALL RIGHT, NICE TO SEE YOU GUYS, 1502 01:10:24,103 --> 01:10:26,275 AND HAVE A SAFE TRIP BACK HOME. 1503 01:10:26,275 --> 01:10:28,034 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, LET ME KNOW. 1504 01:10:33,793 --> 01:10:36,724 Dr. Nowzaradan: UNFORTUNATELY, LEN IS STILL BELIEVING 1505 01:10:36,724 --> 01:10:38,482 HER OWN PERCEPTION THAT SHE'S CREATED, 1506 01:10:38,482 --> 01:10:41,241 WHERE SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE'S EATING THAT MUCH 1507 01:10:41,241 --> 01:10:44,344 AND THAT THERE IS NO REAL REASON FOR HER LACK OF PROGRESS 1508 01:10:44,344 --> 01:10:46,827 AND WHY SHE'S NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1509 01:10:46,827 --> 01:10:48,482 BUT ONCE AGAIN, I'M HOPING 1510 01:10:48,482 --> 01:10:50,689 THAT SHE UNDERSTANDS A LITTLE MORE NOW, 1511 01:10:50,689 --> 01:10:53,896 AND THAT SHE WILL TRY TO DO THE LIQUID DIET FOR A FEW DAYS 1512 01:10:53,896 --> 01:10:57,310 AND THAT HELPS OPEN HER EYES TO HOW MUCH SHE CAN LOSE 1513 01:10:57,310 --> 01:11:01,137 IF SHE CUTS BACK ON HOW MUCH SHE'S TAKING IN EVERY DAY. 1514 01:11:01,137 --> 01:11:05,103 BUT SO FAR, SHE HASN'T BROKEN THE CYCLE OF CONVINCING HERSELF 1515 01:11:05,103 --> 01:11:07,000 SHE'S NOT REALLY EATING A LOT. 1516 01:11:07,000 --> 01:11:10,000 AND UNTIL SHE CHANGES THAT AND SHE SHOWS ME 1517 01:11:10,000 --> 01:11:13,551 SHE'S TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY AND UNDERSTANDS WHAT SHE NEEDS, 1518 01:11:13,551 --> 01:11:15,517 WE'RE NOT MOVING AHEAD WITH HER. 1519 01:11:17,931 --> 01:11:20,068 Leneatha: MY APPOINTMENT TODAY DIDN'T GO AS GREAT 1520 01:11:20,068 --> 01:11:22,241 AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD GO WITH DR. NOW 1521 01:11:22,241 --> 01:11:24,379 BECAUSE DR. NOW STILL DOESN'T SEE 1522 01:11:24,379 --> 01:11:28,000 HOW I'M RISING TO HIS CHALLENGE THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW. 1523 01:11:28,000 --> 01:11:29,827 BUT I CANNOT ARGUE WITH THE FACT 1524 01:11:29,827 --> 01:11:32,241 THAT THE WAY TO AVOID THIS DISAPPOINTMENT 1525 01:11:32,241 --> 01:11:33,793 IS JUST TO DO BETTER. 1526 01:11:33,793 --> 01:11:35,965 SO THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO. 1527 01:11:35,965 --> 01:11:37,103 BECAUSE AT THIS POINT 1528 01:11:37,103 --> 01:11:39,103 I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING DR. NOW SAYS 1529 01:11:39,103 --> 01:11:41,413 UNTIL I HEAR HIM SAY WHAT I WANT TO HEAR, 1530 01:11:41,413 --> 01:11:44,689 WHICH IS HIM APPROVING ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1531 01:11:44,689 --> 01:11:46,965 THE ONLY OTHER OPTION IS TO JUST GIVE UP, 1532 01:11:46,965 --> 01:11:49,206 BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT. 1533 01:12:10,206 --> 01:12:11,724 Leneatha: IT'S BEEN A LITTLE WHILE 1534 01:12:11,724 --> 01:12:14,448 SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 1535 01:12:14,448 --> 01:12:18,448 AND THINGS STILL HAVEN'T BEEN GOING QUITE AS GOOD AS I'D HOPED 1536 01:12:18,448 --> 01:12:21,862 BECAUSE I'M STILL STRUGGLING TO FIND WORK-LIFE BALANCE. 1537 01:12:21,862 --> 01:12:25,344 AND SO FAR THE LIQUID DIET HAS NOT BEEN A PART OF THAT, 1538 01:12:25,344 --> 01:12:27,965 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T HAD THE TIME YET. 1539 01:12:27,965 --> 01:12:31,793 BUT I'M STILL LOOKING AT WAYS TO MAKE DR. NOW'S PROGRAM 1540 01:12:31,793 --> 01:12:35,724 MORE COMPATIBLE WITH THE REAL WORLD I LIVE IN. 1541 01:12:35,724 --> 01:12:39,068 AND TONIGHT MY BROTHER LAMAR IS COMING OVER TO EAT WITH ME 1542 01:12:39,068 --> 01:12:40,655 BECAUSE I HAVE THE IDEA 1543 01:12:40,655 --> 01:12:42,931 THAT I'VE BEEN EATING IN PRIVATE SO LONG 1544 01:12:42,931 --> 01:12:44,241 THAT MAYBE IT WOULD BE GOOD 1545 01:12:44,241 --> 01:12:46,310 TO BRING THAT OUT INTO THE LIGHT. 1546 01:12:46,310 --> 01:12:49,172 BECAUSE IF I'M ACCOUNTABLE TO EATING IN FRONT OF SOMEONE, 1547 01:12:49,172 --> 01:12:52,068 THEN MAYBE I WILL EAT LESS. 1548 01:12:52,068 --> 01:12:54,724 KNOCK-KNOCK. 1549 01:12:54,724 --> 01:12:56,000 HEY. HEY THERE. 1550 01:12:56,000 --> 01:12:57,586 GUESS WHO'S COMING TO DINNER. 1551 01:12:57,586 --> 01:12:58,586 WHAT?! 1552 01:12:58,586 --> 01:13:00,206 DID YOU HAPPEN TO BRING THE SEASONING 1553 01:13:00,206 --> 01:13:01,379 I ASKED YOU TO BRING? 1554 01:13:01,379 --> 01:13:03,137 YEAH, I GOT YOU HOOKED UP. 1555 01:13:03,137 --> 01:13:05,344 GUESS WHAT I'M FIXING? 1556 01:13:05,344 --> 01:13:06,896 MY FAVORITE? 1557 01:13:06,896 --> 01:13:08,172 MM... 1558 01:13:08,172 --> 01:13:10,344 I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S YOUR FAVORITE OR NOT. WHAT IS IT? 1559 01:13:10,344 --> 01:13:12,103 SPAGHETTI? NO. 1560 01:13:12,103 --> 01:13:13,827 NOW, YOU KNOW I CAN'T HAVE SPAGHETTI. 1561 01:13:13,827 --> 01:13:15,689 I'M TRYING TO EAT RIGHT.YEAH, YEAH. 1562 01:13:15,689 --> 01:13:18,827 SO, I GOT SOME TILAPIA AND SOME BROCCOLI. 1563 01:13:18,827 --> 01:13:20,896 MM, TILAPIA'S NOT SO BAD. 1564 01:13:20,896 --> 01:13:22,103 IT'S NOT. 1565 01:13:22,103 --> 01:13:23,758 IT'S ALL IN THE WAY YOU COOK IT ANYWAY, 1566 01:13:23,758 --> 01:13:25,344 WITH ANY FOOD, I THINK. 1567 01:13:25,344 --> 01:13:28,896 SO YOU SEE HOW NEAT I GOT THIS PREPARED? 1568 01:13:28,896 --> 01:13:30,793 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO COME BACK A LITTLE MORE OFTEN. 1569 01:13:30,793 --> 01:13:33,758 I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU, BUT I LOVE MY BROCCOLI. 1570 01:13:33,758 --> 01:13:35,896 I EAT MORE OF THE GREEN THAN THE PEAS. 1571 01:13:35,896 --> 01:13:37,413 COME ON, LET'S GO RIGHT HERE AND EAT. 1572 01:13:37,413 --> 01:13:38,965 GOT A COUPLE OF GOOD STUFFS. 1573 01:13:38,965 --> 01:13:43,137 WHERE YOU WANT TO -- WELL, I'LL SIT ON THIS SIDE. 1574 01:13:43,137 --> 01:13:47,137 YOU CAN COME ON AROUND. HERE'S A LITTLE COASTER, BOY. 1575 01:13:47,137 --> 01:13:49,827 I TRY TO KEEP MY LITTLE TABLE A LITTLE, YOU KNOW... 1576 01:13:49,827 --> 01:13:52,137 YEAH. 1577 01:13:52,137 --> 01:13:53,620 YOU PROBABLY DON'T EAT MUCH HERE 1578 01:13:53,620 --> 01:13:55,241 WITH YOUR DIET AND EVERYTHING GOING ON. 1579 01:13:55,241 --> 01:13:56,655 I DON'T. 1580 01:13:56,655 --> 01:13:58,931 BUT SITTING HERE TRYING TO EAT THIS RIGHT HERE, 1581 01:13:58,931 --> 01:14:00,241 JUST LOOKING AT IT. 1582 01:14:00,241 --> 01:14:02,965 YOU KNOW, I'M STILL TRYING TO LEARN, 1583 01:14:02,965 --> 01:14:05,379 LIKE, PORTIONS AND ALL THAT AND STUFF. 1584 01:14:05,379 --> 01:14:09,275 AND THEN LOOKING AT THIS, I STILL SEEMS THIS RIGHT HERE, 1585 01:14:09,275 --> 01:14:11,896 IN MY EYES, BACK THEN WOULD BE LIKE, 1586 01:14:11,896 --> 01:14:14,793 MY BURGER AND FRIES WOULD BE MORE THAN THIS. 1587 01:14:14,793 --> 01:14:16,551 BUT THIS STILL SEEM LIKE IT AIN'T NOTHING, 1588 01:14:16,551 --> 01:14:18,655 AND I'M GONNA BE HUNGRY AGAIN. 1589 01:14:18,655 --> 01:14:20,724 BUT IT'S FULFILLING. 1590 01:14:20,724 --> 01:14:23,448 AND SOMETIMES I WANT TO GIVE UP ON THE JOURNEY 1591 01:14:23,448 --> 01:14:24,724 AND SAY, "DR. NOW, FORGET IT." 1592 01:14:24,724 --> 01:14:28,310 BECAUSE IT'S HARD, AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE 1593 01:14:28,310 --> 01:14:31,896 I'M NOT EVEN DOING GOOD WITH MY CHILD. 1594 01:14:31,896 --> 01:14:33,206 YOU'RE A WONDERFUL MOTHER. 1595 01:14:33,206 --> 01:14:35,034 I LIKE THE WAY THAT YOU'RE RAISING HER 1596 01:14:35,034 --> 01:14:37,379 AND BEING INDEPENDENT, YOU KNOW? 1597 01:14:37,379 --> 01:14:40,206 THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS YOU GOT TO LET GO. 1598 01:14:40,206 --> 01:14:41,482 IT'S HARD, THOUGH. 1599 01:14:41,482 --> 01:14:42,620 BECAUSE I'M GONNA TELL YOU, 1600 01:14:42,620 --> 01:14:44,793 I WANT TO LET GO OF THIS JOURNEY SO BAD. 1601 01:14:44,793 --> 01:14:47,241 JUST KEEP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING. STAY ON THE PATH. 1602 01:14:47,241 --> 01:14:51,241 THAT PATH IS HARD. IT'S A WORN PATH. 1603 01:14:51,241 --> 01:14:53,965 IF ANYTHING ELSE FAILS, YOU KNOW, 1604 01:14:53,965 --> 01:14:55,241 YOU ALWAYS GOT YOUR BABY BROTHER, 1605 01:14:55,241 --> 01:14:56,724 WHO'S ALWAYS GONNA BE BY YOUR SIDE 1606 01:14:56,724 --> 01:14:58,758 NO MATTER WHAT ANYBODY SAYS ABOUT YOU. 1607 01:14:58,758 --> 01:15:00,758 OKAY.I'M JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY. 1608 01:15:00,758 --> 01:15:02,379 OKAY. 1609 01:15:02,379 --> 01:15:04,482 WHATEVER IT TAKES, YOU KNOW, TO HELP YOU ALONG... 1610 01:15:04,482 --> 01:15:06,689 OKAY. ...I'M HERE FOR YOU. 1611 01:15:06,689 --> 01:15:07,793 OKAY. 1612 01:15:07,793 --> 01:15:09,379 GONNA MAKE SURE YOU DO THIS. 1613 01:15:09,379 --> 01:15:12,586 WELL, AT LEAST THE GOOD THING IS WE DON'T HAVE TO WASH DISHES. 1614 01:15:14,896 --> 01:15:18,689 Leneatha: THIS IS REALLY HARD BECAUSE I'M STILL HUNGRY 1615 01:15:18,689 --> 01:15:22,034 BUT I'M TRYING ALL I CAN TO LOSE WEIGHT 1616 01:15:22,034 --> 01:15:24,827 AND I'M GONNA KEEP TRYING AND PUTTING IN EFFORT, 1617 01:15:24,827 --> 01:15:26,137 AND I'M GONNA KEEP HOPING 1618 01:15:26,137 --> 01:15:27,724 THAT THERE'S SOMETHING GOOD FOR ME 1619 01:15:27,724 --> 01:15:29,448 AT THE END OF THIS STRUGGLE. 1620 01:15:45,517 --> 01:15:49,241 WELL, WE MANAGED TO MAKE IT FROM BAD TO WORSE 1621 01:15:49,241 --> 01:15:53,172 BECAUSE KENLYN HAS BEEN REALLY SICK LATELY, 1622 01:15:53,172 --> 01:15:56,689 AND SHE'S BEEN HAVING REALLY BAD ASTHMA ATTACKS 1623 01:15:56,689 --> 01:16:01,034 THAT HAVE BEEN REQUIRING A LOT OF BREATHING TREATMENTS. 1624 01:16:01,034 --> 01:16:03,275 AND IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE IT HAPPENING, 1625 01:16:03,275 --> 01:16:07,586 AND IT THROWS A WRENCH INTO EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE. 1626 01:16:07,586 --> 01:16:09,310 I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE FIRSTHAND KNOWLEDGE 1627 01:16:09,310 --> 01:16:10,724 OF THESE TYPES OF TREATMENTS, 1628 01:16:10,724 --> 01:16:13,931 BUT I DO BECAUSE I WENT THROUGH IT MYSELF. 1629 01:16:13,931 --> 01:16:17,310 BUT WHEN I WAS GOING THROUGH IT, I WAS ALREADY AN ADULT. 1630 01:16:17,310 --> 01:16:20,827 SO I COULD DECIDE ON MY OWN WHEN I RAN OUT OF MONEY 1631 01:16:20,827 --> 01:16:23,137 THAT I WAS GONNA TAKE A BREAK ON TREATMENTS 1632 01:16:23,137 --> 01:16:27,482 AND DOCTORS AND PRESCRIPTIONS FOR A WHILE. 1633 01:16:27,482 --> 01:16:29,896 BUT HOW DO YOU DECIDE THAT FOR A TODDLER CHILD? 1634 01:16:29,896 --> 01:16:34,103 YOU DON'T. YOU PAY WHATEVER IT COSTS. 1635 01:16:34,103 --> 01:16:38,172 SO THAT MEANS I GOT TO PICK UP MORE SHIFTS. 1636 01:16:38,172 --> 01:16:40,655 BUT TO DO THAT, I GOT TO LEAN ON MY FAMILY 1637 01:16:40,655 --> 01:16:43,310 TO HELP ME WITH KENLYN. 1638 01:16:43,310 --> 01:16:45,896 BUT THERE'S A LIMIT ALSO TO WHAT YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS 1639 01:16:45,896 --> 01:16:48,000 CAN DO FOR YOUR CHILD. 1640 01:16:48,000 --> 01:16:50,827 SO, YEAH, I'M DROWNING. 1641 01:17:11,655 --> 01:17:14,655 Leneatha: IT HAS BEEN A ROUGH COUPLE MONTHS. 1642 01:17:14,655 --> 01:17:17,206 IT FEELS LIKE IT'S BEEN ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER, 1643 01:17:17,206 --> 01:17:20,034 WHERE EACH NEW THING IS JUST WORSE. 1644 01:17:20,034 --> 01:17:22,172 SO I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND I PRAYED ON IT, 1645 01:17:22,172 --> 01:17:24,620 AND TODAY I'M TALKING TO DR. NOW 1646 01:17:24,620 --> 01:17:27,620 AND I'M TELLING HIM THAT MY JOURNEY IS GOING ON HOLD 1647 01:17:27,620 --> 01:17:32,034 AND THAT I'M NO LONGER GONNA BE CONTINUING WITH HIS PROGRAM. 1648 01:17:32,034 --> 01:17:34,931 MY DECISION IS BASED ON MY DAUGHTER AND HER SICKNESSES 1649 01:17:34,931 --> 01:17:39,241 AND MAKING SURE THAT SHE'S OKAY, BECAUSE PROVIDING FOR HER, 1650 01:17:39,241 --> 01:17:43,344 THAT'S MY BIGGEST PRIORITY IN MY LIFE. 1651 01:17:43,344 --> 01:17:45,793 BUT JUST BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE THAT JOURNEY RIGHT NOW, 1652 01:17:45,793 --> 01:17:50,103 DOESN'T MEAN I WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE THAT JOURNEY IN MY LIFE. 1653 01:17:50,103 --> 01:17:52,206 AND I REALLY WOULD PREFER FOR DR. NOW 1654 01:17:52,206 --> 01:17:53,896 TO SEE WHERE I'M COMING FROM, 1655 01:17:53,896 --> 01:17:57,413 AND I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO REMAIN IN HIS GOOD GRACES. 1656 01:17:57,413 --> 01:18:01,206 BUT IF HE DOESN'T OR I DON'T, THEN I'M OKAY WITH THAT TOO. 1657 01:18:01,206 --> 01:18:03,793 BECAUSE I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING FOR ME 1658 01:18:03,793 --> 01:18:05,413 AND MY DAUGHTER. 1659 01:18:15,413 --> 01:18:17,241 HI, LEN. HOW ARE YOU DOING? 1660 01:18:17,241 --> 01:18:20,034 HEY, DR. NOW, I'M DOING GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1661 01:18:20,034 --> 01:18:21,517 I'M DOING GOOD. 1662 01:18:21,517 --> 01:18:23,034 SO, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU 1663 01:18:23,034 --> 01:18:25,517 SINCE YOU MISSED YOUR LAST APPOINTMENT AGAIN, 1664 01:18:25,517 --> 01:18:27,344 AND YOU DIDN'T SHOW UP. 1665 01:18:27,344 --> 01:18:30,103 IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU, 1666 01:18:30,103 --> 01:18:32,344 SO WHAT'S GOING ON? 1667 01:18:32,344 --> 01:18:35,655 I'VE BEEN KIND OF BUSY TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER 1668 01:18:35,655 --> 01:18:38,068 AND TAKING HER BACK AND FORTH TO HER DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS 1669 01:18:38,068 --> 01:18:40,206 AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT I CAN BE OFF OF WORK, 1670 01:18:40,206 --> 01:18:42,620 SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO MAKE IT DOWN. 1671 01:18:42,620 --> 01:18:46,137 OKAY, SO EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVEN'T MADE IT DOWN HERE, 1672 01:18:46,137 --> 01:18:47,758 YOU STILL NEED TO WORK WITH YOUR DIET 1673 01:18:47,758 --> 01:18:50,275 AND KEEP LOSING WEIGHT. 1674 01:18:50,275 --> 01:18:53,862 BUT ONCE AGAIN, YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE YOU LOST ANY WEIGHT. 1675 01:18:53,862 --> 01:18:58,793 SO IS YOUR EXCUSE FOR THAT STILL THAT YOU HAVE TOO MUCH GOING ON 1676 01:18:58,793 --> 01:19:00,793 THAT YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH? 1677 01:19:00,793 --> 01:19:01,862 YES, SIR. 1678 01:19:01,862 --> 01:19:04,379 SO HOW DOES HAVING TO DO ALL THAT 1679 01:19:04,379 --> 01:19:06,827 MEAN THAT YOU CAN'T EAT HEALTHY? 1680 01:19:06,827 --> 01:19:09,103 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH ALL THE STRESS 1681 01:19:09,103 --> 01:19:10,655 THAT'S BEEN GOING ON WITH ME 1682 01:19:10,655 --> 01:19:12,793 HAVING TO STILL CARE FOR MY DAUGHTER 1683 01:19:12,793 --> 01:19:16,000 AND NOT REALLY FOCUSING ON ME TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. 1684 01:19:16,000 --> 01:19:18,586 I JUST -- MY FOCUS JUST DISAPPEARED 1685 01:19:18,586 --> 01:19:20,000 FROM THE WEIGHT LOSS. 1686 01:19:20,000 --> 01:19:23,379 SO I'VE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING, BEING A SINGLE PARENT 1687 01:19:23,379 --> 01:19:24,724 AND TRYING TO CARE FOR EVERYTHING 1688 01:19:24,724 --> 01:19:26,275 AND KEEP EVERYTHING GOING 1689 01:19:26,275 --> 01:19:29,689 AND STILL TRYING TO WORK AND KEEP 1690 01:19:29,689 --> 01:19:32,965 JUST DAY-TO-DAY ACTIVITY GOING IS THE MAIN THING. 1691 01:19:32,965 --> 01:19:35,068 I GET THAT YOU HAVE A LOT GOING ON. 1692 01:19:35,068 --> 01:19:37,344 BUT DO YOU REALIZE YOUR RESPONSIBILITY 1693 01:19:37,344 --> 01:19:40,275 WOULDN'T BE ANYTHING IF YOU'RE NOT ALIVE? 1694 01:19:40,275 --> 01:19:43,689 SO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT THAT 1695 01:19:43,689 --> 01:19:46,206 YOU STAY HEALTHY FOR YOUR FAMILY, RIGHT? 1696 01:19:46,206 --> 01:19:47,551 YES, SIR. 1697 01:19:47,551 --> 01:19:50,206 AND THIS REQUIRES THAT YOU EAT HEALTHY 1698 01:19:50,206 --> 01:19:52,344 AND TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT 1699 01:19:52,344 --> 01:19:56,275 AND NOT JUSTIFY THE STRESS TO OVEREAT. 1700 01:19:56,275 --> 01:19:57,620 OKAY? 1701 01:19:57,620 --> 01:20:00,862 WELL, DR. NOW, YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT MY HEALTH COMES FIRST. 1702 01:20:00,862 --> 01:20:02,931 BUT AT THE MOMENT, I PUT MY DAUGHTER 1703 01:20:02,931 --> 01:20:04,413 AS A PRIORITY IN MY LIFE 1704 01:20:04,413 --> 01:20:06,344 AS FAR AS HAVING TO TAKE CARE OF SOMEBODY. 1705 01:20:06,344 --> 01:20:08,517 AND I KNOW THAT I STILL NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MY HEALTH 1706 01:20:08,517 --> 01:20:10,241 TO BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF HER, 1707 01:20:10,241 --> 01:20:12,896 BUT SHE'S NOT WHERE SHE CAN TAKE CARE OF HERSELF. 1708 01:20:12,896 --> 01:20:14,620 SO I DO HAVE TO PAUSE MY LIFE 1709 01:20:14,620 --> 01:20:16,793 TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE'S TAKEN CARE OF, 1710 01:20:16,793 --> 01:20:20,206 EVEN IF IT MEANS STOPPING MY JOURNEY, SO... 1711 01:20:20,206 --> 01:20:23,413 I'M HAVING TO PUT A HALT TO IT RIGHT NOW. 1712 01:20:23,413 --> 01:20:24,862 I SEE. 1713 01:20:24,862 --> 01:20:27,620 SO IS THAT YOUR WAY OF TELLING ME THAT YOU QUITTING 1714 01:20:27,620 --> 01:20:30,517 AND YOU'RE DONE WITH THE PROGRAM? 1715 01:20:30,517 --> 01:20:32,310 I'M NOT DONE WITH THE PROGRAM, 1716 01:20:32,310 --> 01:20:36,482 BUT AT THE MOMENT I'M PUTTING MY FOCUS ON MY DAUGHTER 1717 01:20:36,482 --> 01:20:38,517 AND THE ISSUES THAT I HAVE AT HAND, 1718 01:20:38,517 --> 01:20:40,862 SO I HAVE TO STOP AT THE MOMENT. 1719 01:20:40,862 --> 01:20:43,344 ALL RIGHT, LEN, BUT IF THAT'S THE CASE, 1720 01:20:43,344 --> 01:20:45,689 EVEN IF YOU CANNOT COME DOWN HERE, 1721 01:20:45,689 --> 01:20:48,517 YOU NEED TO STICK WITH THE HEALTHY EATING HABITS. 1722 01:20:48,517 --> 01:20:51,689 SO YOU NEED TO STICK WITH A 1,200-CALORIE DIET 1723 01:20:51,689 --> 01:20:53,103 NO MATTER WHAT 1724 01:20:53,103 --> 01:20:56,758 AND TRY TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN UNDER 500 AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. 1725 01:20:56,758 --> 01:21:00,068 BECAUSE IF YOU WANT TO BE AROUND, 1726 01:21:00,068 --> 01:21:01,896 THEN YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO FOLLOW THE DIET 1727 01:21:01,896 --> 01:21:04,758 AND CONTINUE LOSING WEIGHT, OKAY? 1728 01:21:04,758 --> 01:21:06,068 YES, SIR. 1729 01:21:06,068 --> 01:21:08,275 SO DON'T USE WHAT'S GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE 1730 01:21:08,275 --> 01:21:12,000 AS A STRESS TO OVEREAT. 1731 01:21:12,000 --> 01:21:14,379 YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING, RIGHT? 1732 01:21:14,379 --> 01:21:16,310 I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE SAYING ABOUT TAKING CARE 1733 01:21:16,310 --> 01:21:18,000 OF MY HEALTH FIRST, DR. NOW. 1734 01:21:18,000 --> 01:21:19,413 BUT I PUT MY DAUGHTER AS A PRIORITY 1735 01:21:19,413 --> 01:21:21,482 AND SHE'S NOT OLD ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF. 1736 01:21:21,482 --> 01:21:24,482 SO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER FIRST AND FOREMOST, 1737 01:21:24,482 --> 01:21:27,413 EVEN THOUGH IF THAT MEANS PUTTING MYSELF AT A HALT. 1738 01:21:27,413 --> 01:21:30,103 AND I'M DISAPPOINTED THAT I CAN'T DO THE PROGRAM 1739 01:21:30,103 --> 01:21:32,275 LIKE I WANT TO DO THE PROGRAM 1740 01:21:32,275 --> 01:21:36,793 'CAUSE I HAVE TO PUT MY DAUGHTER AT THE FOREFRONT OF MY HEALTH. 1741 01:21:36,793 --> 01:21:39,068 SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA WORK ON DOING. 1742 01:21:39,068 --> 01:21:40,793 ALL RIGHT, LEN, IF YOU'RE TELLING ME 1743 01:21:40,793 --> 01:21:43,344 YOU'RE NOT COMING BACK DOWN ANYTIME SOON 1744 01:21:43,344 --> 01:21:44,896 AND YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT, 1745 01:21:44,896 --> 01:21:47,689 THEN IT LOOKS LIKE YOU'RE DONE WITH THE PROGRAM. 1746 01:21:47,689 --> 01:21:50,724 BUT IN THE MEANTIME, MAKE SURE TO GO TO A DOCTOR THERE 1747 01:21:50,724 --> 01:21:54,620 TO KEEP TRACK OF YOUR HEALTH ON A REGULAR BASIS, 1748 01:21:54,620 --> 01:21:57,758 AND IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTION OR CHANGE YOUR MIND, 1749 01:21:57,758 --> 01:21:59,793 YOU CAN GIVE US A CALL, OKAY? 1750 01:21:59,793 --> 01:22:00,931 YES, SIR. 1751 01:22:00,931 --> 01:22:03,689 OKAY, GOOD LUCK AND TAKE CARE 1752 01:22:03,689 --> 01:22:06,482 OF YOUR FAMILY, AND JUST TRY TO LOSE YOUR WEIGHT. 1753 01:22:06,482 --> 01:22:07,827 YES, SIR. THANK YOU. 1754 01:22:07,827 --> 01:22:09,344 ALL RIGHT. BYE, LEN. 1755 01:22:09,344 --> 01:22:10,793 BYE-BYE. 1756 01:22:15,137 --> 01:22:17,172 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S UNFORTUNATE THAT LEN HAS DECIDED 1757 01:22:17,172 --> 01:22:19,206 NOT TO MAKE HER HEALTH A PRIORITY, 1758 01:22:19,206 --> 01:22:22,862 BECAUSE I DON'T THINK SHE FULLY REALIZES HOW FAST HER TIME 1759 01:22:22,862 --> 01:22:26,551 IS GONNA RUN OUT IF SHE KEEPS GOING DOWN THE PATH SHE'S ON. 1760 01:22:26,551 --> 01:22:30,137 BUT SHE HASN'T BEEN ABLE TO GET PAST THE HURDLE IN HER MIND 1761 01:22:30,137 --> 01:22:32,965 WHERE SHE JUSTIFIES HER RESPONSIBILITIES 1762 01:22:32,965 --> 01:22:36,827 BEING HER EXCUSE TO OVEREAT AND CONTINUE LIKE THIS. 1763 01:22:36,827 --> 01:22:39,206 AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE TALK TO HER TO TRY 1764 01:22:39,206 --> 01:22:42,310 AND HELP HER UNDERSTAND THAT, SHE CHOOSES TO IGNORE IT 1765 01:22:42,310 --> 01:22:44,275 AND JUST KEEP SAYING THE SAME THING. 1766 01:22:44,275 --> 01:22:45,551 SO THE NEXT STEP WITH HER 1767 01:22:45,551 --> 01:22:48,931 WOULD BE THERAPY TO TRY AND BREAK THROUGH TO HER, 1768 01:22:48,931 --> 01:22:51,275 BUT THAT WON'T BE THE CASE SINCE SHE DOESN'T FEEL 1769 01:22:51,275 --> 01:22:54,206 SHE CAN CONTINUE ON WITH THE PROGRAM FOR NOW. 1770 01:22:54,206 --> 01:22:56,931 BUT HOPEFULLY THERE WILL COME A POINT WHERE SHE WAKES UP 1771 01:22:56,931 --> 01:22:58,551 TO GET THE HELP SHE NEEDS, 1772 01:22:58,551 --> 01:23:00,689 AND IF SHE COMES BACK TO US FOR THAT, 1773 01:23:00,689 --> 01:23:04,103 WE'LL BE HERE TO HELP HER AS LONG AS SHE PUTS IN THE EFFORT 1774 01:23:04,103 --> 01:23:05,896 TO SHOW ME SHE'S SERIOUS 1775 01:23:05,896 --> 01:23:08,689 AND READY TO START MAKING THE CHANGE SHE NEEDS. 1776 01:23:08,689 --> 01:23:11,551 BECAUSE THERE IS NO MAGIC FIX THAT IS GONNA SOLVE 1777 01:23:11,551 --> 01:23:15,862 ANY OF HER PROBLEMS FOR HER AND TURN HER SITUATION AROUND. 1778 01:23:15,862 --> 01:23:18,000 SHE HAS TO DO THAT AND SHE HAS TO DO IT 1779 01:23:18,000 --> 01:23:20,724 BEFORE IT GETS TO A POINT WHERE SOMETHING HAPPENS 1780 01:23:20,724 --> 01:23:22,586 AND IT IS TOO LATE FOR HER. 1781 01:23:27,000 --> 01:23:29,344 Leneatha: CHECK, CHECK, CHECK, CHECK. 1782 01:23:29,344 --> 01:23:30,931 -CAN YOU HEAR ME? -YEAH. 1783 01:23:30,931 --> 01:23:33,586 WE'RE GONNA SING AFTER SHE GO. 1784 01:23:33,586 --> 01:23:35,241 ONE VERSE OF "AMAZING GRACE." 1785 01:23:35,241 --> 01:23:42,793 ♪ AMAZING GRACE ♪ 1786 01:23:42,793 --> 01:23:50,448 ♪ HOW SWEET THE SOUND ♪ 1787 01:23:50,448 --> 01:23:55,931 ♪ THAT SAVED A WRETCH... ♪ 1788 01:23:55,931 --> 01:23:58,482 AFTER MY TALK WITH DR. NOW, 1789 01:23:58,482 --> 01:24:01,000 I DO UNDERSTAND WHAT HE'S SAYING ABOUT MY HEALTH 1790 01:24:01,000 --> 01:24:03,275 AND HOW IMPORTANT WEIGHT LOSS IS FOR ME. 1791 01:24:05,344 --> 01:24:08,793 BUT IF I CAN'T DEVOTE MYSELF FULLY TO THE PROGRAM RIGHT NOW, 1792 01:24:08,793 --> 01:24:12,482 I KNOW THE BEST CHOICE FOR ME IS TO TAKE A BREAK. 1793 01:24:12,482 --> 01:24:14,275 AT THIS MOMENT TO MAKE THIS DECISION 1794 01:24:14,275 --> 01:24:16,448 IS HEARTBREAKING FOR ME, 1795 01:24:16,448 --> 01:24:18,551 BECAUSE TO TRY TO GET THIS WEIGHT OFF 1796 01:24:18,551 --> 01:24:21,896 IS SOMETHING THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. 1797 01:24:21,896 --> 01:24:24,379 BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'VE DISAPPOINTED MYSELF, 1798 01:24:24,379 --> 01:24:28,103 BECAUSE I KNOW I TRIED MY BEST GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES. 1799 01:24:28,103 --> 01:24:31,034 BUT I DO FEEL LIKE I PROBABLY DISAPPOINTED DR. NOW, 1800 01:24:31,034 --> 01:24:33,000 BECAUSE I CAN SEE IN HIS EYES THAT HE TRULY SEES 1801 01:24:33,000 --> 01:24:34,724 THAT I'M SINCERE ABOUT THIS JOURNEY 1802 01:24:34,724 --> 01:24:37,241 AND HOW HARD THAT I WANT IT. 1803 01:24:37,241 --> 01:24:40,379 BUT IT'S JUST, AT THIS MOMENT, I CAN'T DO IT. 1804 01:24:40,379 --> 01:24:43,310 SO RIGHT NOW I NEED ALL MY FOCUS TO BE 1805 01:24:43,310 --> 01:24:45,620 ON TAKING CARE OF MY DAUGHTER AND HER SICKNESSES 1806 01:24:45,620 --> 01:24:48,482 AND MAKING SURE THAT I GET HER TO HER APPOINTMENTS, 1807 01:24:48,482 --> 01:24:51,206 MAKING SURE THAT SHE'S OKAY, 1808 01:24:51,206 --> 01:24:54,827 AND THEN TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT I'M PROVIDING FOR HER. 1809 01:24:54,827 --> 01:24:57,034 AND I FEEL LIKE DOWN THE ROAD THAT I CAN CONTINUE STICKING 1810 01:24:57,034 --> 01:24:59,275 WITH EATING RIGHT, AND WHO KNOWS? 1811 01:24:59,275 --> 01:25:02,448 DOWN THE ROAD, I MAY NOT EVEN NEED THE SLEEVE SURGERY -- 1812 01:25:02,448 --> 01:25:05,655 I CAN JUST LOSE WEIGHT ON MY OWN NATURALLY AND WORK OUT, 1813 01:25:05,655 --> 01:25:09,103 AND I CAN JUST SEE DR. NOW FOR SKIN-LOSS SURGERY. 1814 01:25:09,103 --> 01:25:11,689 SO I'M NOT GIVING UP, AND JUST BECAUSE 1815 01:25:11,689 --> 01:25:13,793 I CAN'T MAKE THAT JOURNEY RIGHT NOW DOESN'T MEAN 1816 01:25:13,793 --> 01:25:16,724 I WON'T BE ABLE TO MAKE THAT JOURNEY IN MY LIFE. 1817 01:25:16,724 --> 01:25:19,068 BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I DESERVE A HEALTHY LIFE 1818 01:25:19,068 --> 01:25:22,793 AND I'M PROMISING MYSELF TO MAKE IT THERE ONE DAY, 1819 01:25:22,793 --> 01:25:25,137 WHERE ME AND KENLYN CAN BOTH BE THERE, 1820 01:25:25,137 --> 01:25:28,965 TOGETHER, BOTH OF US HEALTHY. 1821 01:25:28,965 --> 01:25:31,827 AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT.